soo..a few things have happened since i last wrote..dave and i are on ok terms. speaking friendly, not much contact, but that's probably a good thing at the moment. i stayed at andrew's after work saturday night...well it was just strange from start to end. i tried to get up off the sofa when we were gonna head up to bed at like 2am, and my back went, so he gave me this back rub  not that unusual, he does that sometimes in work. But then he pulled me back onto the sofa with him and put his arm round me and pulled me in close...i had my head on his chest for a bit; and it was weird..just sat there,, in silence, just cuddled up together?! wtf! lol. He was acting strange though, kept looking at me all the time, and I kinda knew he was trying to kiss me, but he didn't. we went up to bed then, i went up to the spare room, sat on the edge of the bed, and he sat next to me. he was shaking though and i said 'youre shaking' and he made up some excuse. went to sleep then, feeling really strange though, and it was bloody freezing. even though we didn't get to bed til nearly 2:30am, i still woke up at 7, and couldn't get back to sleep. He didn't get up til gone 11, so I did some tidying up downstairs and was doing the dishes when he came down, scared the shit out of me coming down; and he stood behind me at the sink with his arms round my waist..by this time I just don't know what's happening. made it back into the living room after we'd both had a shower (seperately you dirty minded people  ) and he kept hugging me all the time again; then he asked how it was going with dave; to which i answered that i hadnt seen him or spoken to him since the last time I had. i wondered why he was asking tbh. I was dying for a drink by then, so he went and made us cups of tea; then when i got up to go out the kitchen to get mine, he kinda backed me up against the counter and kissed me, full on like :/ ...I gotta be honest, i didn't push him away or anything. he kept doing it then, and he ended up being late for work because he wouldn't leave. I just don't know where it all came from? he never showed any interest in me in that way before, so why now all of a sudden? i couldn't sleep last night to save my life, it was nearly 2am by the time i got to sleep. might have had something to do with the fact i was texting him too though lol. kept saying how he wished i was there and that he wished he hadnt had to go to work yesterday because things could have been 'interesting' :/ aaaahhh!
hope that lot is legible, sorry it's all just a big paragraph of garbled crap! |
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