I've made a wee bit of progress since my last entry. broken the news to chloe, via text msg - I am a wuss. She immediately phoned me, crying, apparently happy that I had told her, and now it's great cuz I can say whatever I like on twitter, and I happily sat reading Diva in front of her today
I've also written a letter to my parents. I let Anna read it and she said it was really good...now I just have to work out if I have the balls to post it, or leave it at the house. I'll put it below...opinions welcome..
Dear Mum & Dad,
I know you might think this is pretty strange, me writing you a letter when I only live a few miles away from you. However this is something I need to talk to you about and I need to be able to get my thoughts straight first. The reason I'm writing to you is because you need to know that I am gay. I know this isn't what you wanted for me and you may well be disappointed or angry, but please understand this isn't your fault, this is just the way it is and I'm not weird or 'going through a phase'. I understand you will probably feel disappointed - this isn't what I would've chosen for myself if I could choose either - but life isn't necessarily going to be any more difficult now, different, yes, but I guess we just have to take whatever life throws at us and deal with it. It's really not a big a deal as you might think it is. At least this way I will never, fingers crossed, come home pregnant! We all know you think I'd be a terrible mother...!
We don't talk much, I know, about personal stuff and I don't know whether this is coming as a complete surprise or you may've had an idea before; as I know you knew about the choir I'm in. I guess I wanted you to find out but didn't quite have the nerves to bring it up myself. Please understand that even though I don't like discussing my personal life with anyone, it doesn't mean I wouldn't want any support at times in my life which have been hard or might be hard in the future. After all, if you don't have your family behind you in times of need, there's no hope. I guess you may feel like you have failed me as parents, but this is definitely not the case - I could not ask for better parents, always helping me out in times of need and denying me the things I wanted to do but probably shouldn't've; and providing me with a fantastic, stable upbringing and great education that a lot of people could only dream of. If you would like to continue being great parents, the best thing you can do is support me in this and definitely not disown me!
I know you may need some time to think about this, so I will leave the ball in your court.
ho hum...not much else to report. Tried out a new singing group yesterday, Canton Singers I think, Anna & Helen were trying it out and they said I could go with if I wanted, I don't know if I will keep up all three choirs that I now appear to be in though, I don't want to leave any of them so I'm just gonna see how it goes. There is a drumming group before the Canton Singers one though which I think Helen is interested in so I might just find myself there too! Ahhh! BUSYYYY!!
Got my new tattoo booked in for a week tomorrow, I'm bricking it, dreading the pain but looking forward to it then Helen and I are going to the cinema after, don't know what we're going to see yet though.
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