Still feeling a bit meh. Need to make some serious decisions in life, really don't know if i should call time on my relationship with Dave before it's too late. But I don't want to hurt him. Everyone will end up hurt if i do. but I will not be happy continuing how we are..
as for alex, I dont even know what to think or do. Steph keeps telling me he fancies me, and I just keep thinking its impossible, why would an 18 year old guy fancy me?! insane. But a big part of me wants it to be true..hmm! Brainache.
Just kinda feeling like Im existing right now, day to day, just working, when Im home just whiling away the hours til work again, what a sad existence..! Lol
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