I really don't.
:/
Anyway...
I need to spew some shit. Wait until the end to judge me.
After Kelsey's last week, I went to Denny's Saturday-Sunday. I regretted the cig because I coughed for a while, but it cleared up before I got to Denny's around 10. Laura and a few of her crew were there and they left by midnight. By then Slaw was tired as hell, so I hung out with the stoners and Denny who were playing video games. I started playing, then took a few hits off of a bowl. Got high for the first time there. Played Call of Duty and some Madden game until 4am when I shared a blunt with Clifton (rather, he shared with me). Then played Little Big Planet for like three more hours.
Fun, but being high didn't have side affects that I didn't like like smoking that cigarette did. So now I want to get high again.
And also, Denny is hot as fuck. Sadly straight, OF COURSE, but cute as a goddamn button. Definitely the new crush since I actually talk to him every day. Fuck. Cute drunk gamer, too.
I wanted to go to Denny's this weekend, but there was this huge drama with Slaw going.
Basically, since she's known me since forever, she feels weird at these parties I have just started going to. Like, all in March I drank, smoked, and got high for the first times. Plus Jonny, her boyfriend (now, again), is also new to this (though he hasn't gotten high or anything other than drinking. Good for him), and she is all worked up about him. Especially since she can tell I only do stuff when I want to, but he does stuff out of peer pressure and obligation. I've turned down plenty of weed and beer. But if I want to get shit-faced, I go for it. Anyway, so Slaw and myself haven't been to ONE good party without Jonny yet, and it is a shitty thing to do to ask him not to go. Regardless, this summer I'm making it happen. A small party at Denny's (impossible during the school year, they always get huge because ZOMGZ BEER LOL I LOVE IT HAHA LET'S GET DRUNK AND FUCK! *sigh*) with me, Slaw, not Jonny, and some GOOD alcohol and maybe weed. I want to know what she's like without him.
Anyway, so I wanted to go to Denny's party but Slaw didn't because she's tired of these huge terrible parties with dumbfucks running around. (Last time a freshman lost her virginity, then fucked AGAIN that night. Goddamn. She had even puked earlier. She's so classy. And yes, HIGH SCHOOL freshman.) I understand, but really, we can have our own separate party there. Instead of going to said party, however, she and Jonny planned a night at his house. So, at least that will be fun. And then it turns out Denny isn't having the party because him and Clifton (the aforementioned stoner) are meeting with Denny's mom to work on college stuff (both are seniors).
Pointless drama and frustration. But I'm tired of Slaw acting all high and mighty when I do something at a party and she doesn't. She actually said I'm "losing my morals." She was doing this shit in fucking 7th grade. Classy. Do you know what it's like to be a devout Christian 13-year-old and have your best friend drunk-dial you?
God.
I need this right now. Fuck legality, I'm being safe about it. When I'm "drunk" I probably don't go to 0.08% And high was really not too crazy the first time (but I don't think I inhaled right...?). Either way, these weekends are great stress relievers. I have a test, two quizzes, and a final exam tomorrow. WHAT THE FUCK. Fridays are stupid sometimes. Anyway, I studied for the Precal exam. (If you're wondering, it is a semester high-school dual enrollment course. That means it's also college credit, which means it is technically MTH 163/164. I have the MTH 163 exam tomorrow because it's half-way through the semester.) I haven't studied for science, but I think that'll be easy. (That's the test.) French and Spanish are quizzes each, but those aren't hard.
I just can't wait until Spring Break next week. I know Denny's planning a well-thought-out guest list for this one. No stupid fucks. Only the better underclassmen, not those whores who think they're cool because they drink 'till they puke. At least...that's the hope. Goddamn.
Alright, NOW you can judge me. I know I'm a terrible teenager who had a promising future, but caved to peer pressure and "looking cool," right?
Because smart kids can't have relaxing and fun weekends, right?
(I mean, what would I do without my quote, "She probably sits at her window and masturbates to rodents." ?!?) |
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