Because apparently I'm just too good for kids my age.
Not true.
But I do always end up liking older guys. Like right now, I stayed up half-unintentionally, half-waiting-for-a-text.
God, I'm so weird.
Because this one lives in Arkansas and has graduated from a four-year college before I even get through my junior year of high school.
At least this time it's friendship and not a delusion on either side. Liking is different from wanting, right? Even if one is good looking and about six years older? Yeah, sure.
Welcome to BitchBlog2011 because that's all this seems to be this year. *sigh* I miss coming to Bloop for happy thoughts. But I share happy thoughts from friends and hide the unhappy ones because they tend to do that annoying worry thing.
I'll say it a million more times: my Twitter is for spam and funny quotes, my tumblr is for spam and funny jokes. Pick your poison, or, more wisely, none at all. I'm sure my friends wish they had that choice at this point.
Have I mentioned how much Slaw has annoyed me lately? She is so standoffish. She's only friends when SHE wants to be because she has a different "best friend" for each of her personality traits. Instead of trying to match a lot of traits in one friend, which I think I could do. So our relationship is just weird and completely on her terms and it angers me a lot. She'd be upset without me (which shouldn't console me as much as it does), but she has so many backup friends. I know that's not how it IS, but that's how it FEELS. And really, isn't that what matters more in these sorts of things?
Have I mentioned how much of an amazing friend Drake has been? He literally contacted me the other day to go for a car wash with him so he wouldn't go alone. I saw it as thoughtful -- I was having a boring do-nothing day and he knew it and then we had fun. That rarely happens with Slaw because she barely has time for her necessities like homework. She's almost gotten a failing grade in an easy class just because she never sits down and DOES the fucking work. Goddamn.
I feel like I give so much sometimes and only certains de mes amis return the favor. I'm really glad Drake is one of those friends. He gets my humor, I get his, we know how to annoy each other in the way friends should but know when not to do so in the same way. It's really what I've wanted for quite a while that Slaw hasn't provided.
I am a NEEDY bitch. God forbid any male to fall into my vicelike clutches. Because if this is just my emotional FRIEND needs, just imagine my emotional romantic needs. I myself shudder at the thought! Honestly, I see the physical side of a relationship as very simple. It's my fucking BRAIN that I can't wrap myself around.
I hope you're enjoying this stream-of-consciousness post. I haven't really BLOGGED in so long. It was nice.
And I miss French. Ooh! French! I got a French grammar book! And a Kindle! With HHGTTG!
Okay, I need sleep. I'm getting up in about five hours to go to school. -_- |
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