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As the title says, I'm feeling really displaced all of a sudden. Sucky thing about having the internet really. I don't know. I was on facebook playing some games and then checking on friends updates as they started rolling in and bam it hit me. My "best" friends daughter made a comment about being extremely happy. I was a bit scared about the way she stated it being as she's only 14 and just before I moved we had found out that she had started having sex. Wow. Her mom was in a state of panic. Anyways, I move and now I'm completely out of the loop. Kelley never wanted me to move...but what can I do? I didn't want to move away neither. Not from her anyways and now I'm like "I was holding back for her?". I commented on her daughters status about why she was happy. She just said she didn't know...and believe me she makes those types of random comments. Then another friend left a comment saying "I know why! and I hope you have a lot of fun!!" The daughter says thanks and shush connie. OOOkay. This girl used to tell me so many things that she wouldn't even tell her mother. Her mother used to say how she wished her daughter would talk to her the way she does me. I tried explaining that the difference was that she WAS the mother and I am more a friend. Plus I just have a way different attitude then what she does which is why kids always seem to flock to me though I didn't tell her that. So...here we are and this happens and she doesn't say anything. The way the comments were left I felt more brushed aside than anything by the two of them. Me and her mother were like best friends or so I thought. Then I move. Now this is someone who swore she wasn't gonna let me leave, wanted me to move in with her though we knew she was joking but the thought was nice, you know? I've been to Broadway several times since moving here and every time except once I made sure to stop by if I saw her car home. The first time was nice. The second time it seemed like I was bothering her more than anything. We were all talking cause her sister and a friend of Jeff's came over too. I had said something about getting the house phone hooked up but that it sucked cause everyone was long distance and our phone doesn't have it. We aren't suppose to use the cell for personal calls which this was already known and the reason I figured she never called me. I know she knew that because she wouldn't give the number to another friend of ours because of that so she told me. Anyways when I mentioned the long distance factor she asked for the number. She has unlimited long distance on her cell. I was like awesome. ...........she hasn't called one single solitary time. I don't think I can remember going a day without seeing her, talking to her, or texting with her in the last year. She would put off her boyfriend cause she needed some "amanda time". So...what? Now I don't live in the same county or I'm not next door I'm automatically cut-off for some reason? Now we would have our girl talks and hanging out and what have you but I also did a TON for her. I probably took her children to the doctor's visits 85% of the time by myself and the other 15% I was with her. I'd say 80% of the time I was picking up her paycheck and cashing it or running here or there to pay this bill or that bill for her while she was working. I babysat her kids if they were home sick. I went with her to take her kids to their father's every other weekend. So...what was I? A pawn? Now I'm of no convenient use so why bother picking up the phone? I remember when we were bringing our first load of stuff over. I had already been here to see the house once before that and told her about it the best that I could. So when we brought our first load she wanted to come so she could see where we lived and how to get here so she could come visit. She can't tell me that she don't know being as she's told several other people correctly how to get here though they haven't visited either. The only person to have come here besides family is Jeff's friend Gordy. Granted we are an hour away but we've lived here now...about 4 months. Not once has she called or attempted to visit. I don't understand why the change? I guess we just weren't really that good of friends. I haven't been that close to someone since highschool and that friend and me just slowly drifted apart and that happens when you leave school granted. But this wasn't slow or anything it was extremely abrupt. I move and friendship just ends. OOOkay. Sad. I'm sad. I have nobody now. Hell, Jeff really isn't around much either. I spent 3 hours waiting to have an hour long supper with him and the kids at a restaurant tonight. He doesn't really get how upsetting this friendship thing is. He's just like she's not really a friend then. I know this but it's not that simply gotten over, you know? He says not to worry about it. I'm not worried persay just upset...extremely. I'm not gonna beg her to come...would you? I'm not gonna beg her to call. I just kinda figured if you were a friend you would pick up the phone and call to see how someone is doing. Right? I would if I could and she knows I can't call. Ugh!!
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