the aftermass edited

02/19/2010

Hi, thanks for all your notes. I still have not heard from Nikki and it is now Friday morning.

Just as the quote and poem said from the last entry, I had to go to bed and just hope for a better day when I wake up.

My little 11 year old, cousin slept over Wed night and we played WII for a few hours till he got tired, bored and silly but it was fun while it lasted. I went to sleep, unsure what Thursday and the weekend would bring.

My mom woke me up, hmm no wait, I was half awake when she came into my room. She asked me if I wanted to go to Disney on ice, she was taking Jalen. (lil cuz) I said “YES” (side note, from the time I was 3 till now (31 yo) I’ve gone to Disney on ice all but 2 years and I thought I wasn’t going to go this year) I was really excited. So I got ready and sent out some emails. I went up stairs and my mom said I got a package in the mail. I opened it and it was my “redsox nation 2010 membership” It came with a redsox hat, a bumper sticker and a picture of the green monster (famous score board) and where there should be scores going across, it spells out my first and last name. my mom said it should be a poster. AND the official card. I was super excited.

We went into Boston, got the tickets and went to lunch at Boston Beerworks, one of my fav restaurant and no I don’t drink beer. I had a burger with beer battered onion rings, J got nachos and my mom got turkey tip rap. There was an add on the table that my mom told me about. You can buy their beer in a 6pack of bottles. Because I am a very caring and thoughtful person, I bought a 6pack for my sis in law. She loves their blueberry beer. When I see her on my birthday next weekend, I’ll surprise her with the beer.

DISNEY ON ICE PRESENTS: SELEBRATIONS

(usually Disney on ice is a movie played out on ice, this year was different)

It started with a character from beauty and the Beast coming out, and setting up the show by singing “be our guest” and everyone sings along and during the song, Mickey, Minny, Donald, Goofy and Pluto come out.

Mickey talks about how he likes to celebrate things and today we are going to celebrate different occasions from the year. He talks to Minny how today is no one’s birthday. And the Mad Hatter comes out and sings “very unbirthday” and the crowd sings along.

The next scene is a Halloween party with all the bad characters being invited into one of their houses, (captain hook, the witch from snow white, Cruella DeVil and others) Mickey goes to the house and says “trick or treat” the Witch offers him a nice chine red apple. Mickey asks the crowd he if he should eat it. Crowd shouts “no!” the witch says that it wont hurt, that it is very tasty and just one bite wont hurt. The crowd shouts no again. Minny came to the door dressed as a ghost. Says to the Crowd, if we all say boo together, maybe we can scare the bad people away, on the count of 3. 1.2.3 BOO! And all the bad people leave.

The next scene was valentines day. Minny goes to the ferry godmother and asks how she can be a princess. The ferry godmother says, “all you got to do is wish upon a star and all your dreams will come true.” And the crowd sang along with the ferry godmother. Minny went to all the princesses for advice. At the end of the Scene Mickey comes out and asks Minny if she’ll be his Valentine.

Next scene is celebrating summer time and the last scene was Christmas.
It was very good and I am happy I went.


Saturday night my siblings and some of my older bro’s friends are going to a comedy night. I called him to see if he could get me a ticket. He left me a message, saying the reservation is under his name and that we’re going to the Midwest grill before for dinner. So I called the club and at first the person said it was sold out. He looked again and there was one ticket left. (my bro’s table only had 9 people on it) I then called the restaurant and changed that reservation as well. I then emailed both of my brothers to inform them I will be joining them Saturday night. My twin replied “welcome aboard!” and my older bro writes back: “Alright! This is going to be wild”

So although the weekend is not going to be as good as it could have been, it is turning out to be pretty good. Even though, I am still feeling lonely and alone, especially knowing some of you had some pretty amazing valentines.

I want to thank you all for allowing me to use you as my sounding board, poem cridics, my bloop buddies and some of you, I would love to call you my friend.

EDIT EDIT EDIT

It is Sunday morning and I can not sleep. (what else is new?)
so I figured I'd update now.

Saturday I got a note from Nikki saying she was sorry and she'd call me to talk about it. I had an updated fav, so I went to the page and it was Nikki who updated. I think her entry title says it all.
"to care about me is to get hurt"

I am such a caring, loving, thoughtful person, I just hope one day I can find a lady who can appreciate me.

Saturday night, I went to the comidy night but first we went to a Berzillian all you can eat restaurant where they bring around skewers of meats-chickens. They also have a salad bar and a side bar, for like rice, corn and potatoes. I had a big plate of salad then I wanted stake. 10 mins past, stake came by but it was medium rare. We waited for the next stake guy to come by and he had median well, but my twin said it was too pink for me. My cousin Heidi asked the guy if they could bring a welldone stake. 20 minutes later they come by with a welldone stake. I had a hard time cutting it (I had a stake knife) so my twin tried and it was just tough-non-edable. So we told a lady who was working and she told the stake person for me and 20 minutes later, when everyone else is finished and I am starving, I finally got the stake and how I like it. But I dont think I'll be going back there any time soon.

We walked out and next door is a burger joint, my favorite, they also have a bakery, (they bake their own roles) My sis in laws says she wants cookies and that sounded really good to me. So we went in, I got a double chocolate chip cookie and an M&M cookie. OMG. they were just... "to die for" they were ooy gooy yummy warm from the oven cookies. I ate them as we drove to the comidy shop.

The headliner is Lenny Clark. He is a big time local and he brings all locals with him. I figured out I seen him (including this night) 6 times in 23 months. Not because I wanted to, just out of opritunity. (he does a lot of fundraisers and 2 of those 6 were fundraisers) If anyone watched the tv show "rescue me" he's uncle teddy. He has been in movies but cant think of any off the top of my head. He brought along a young guy who just moved out here from Origon. He was very good. Then Steve Sweeny and Tony D, who I have seen both of them. They were both good and then Lenny Clark came back out. He was basicly the MC and the headliner so he started off with a lot of new stuff but the last part, me and my cousin Heidi were mouthing the words right before he says them. Not so fun. But all and all, I am glad I went out. Better than staying home sulking about not being at a bon jovi concert.

I was going to write a poem about how I feel and I just couldnt do it. So I started reading some of my older poems. I found one about this girl who I knew from the opendiary. She was a diehard redsox fan. I never met a female up to then or since, who loved the sox like I do. I think about her from time to time. I googled her name, and I think I found her, but I dont think I'll follow up. It seems as she went on to grad school in the profession she was dreaming about in highschool so, good for her.

I then went and looked up other girls I have known from my past. Too many people with the same name. I never understand how people look others up on social sites unless you know where they are living and how old they are and if a female, if they are married or not and what their married name is.

The sun is rizing (I think?) I guess I should try to get some sleep.