I want to be the best. But I know that I never will be. I never will be the one with it all taken care of. I will never be the one to make it big. All I want is a job and a family. But it would be nice to not have to depend on everyone else to take care of and support me and my kids. That's my job, not theirs. I want to go to college and make something of myself...but I can't because I am too busy being a mother and a wife. I dont trust daycares and my family is too nusy with their own lives.Why cant things work out for me for once? Why does it always seem like its me who gets the shitty end of the stick? Why must I be the one who struggles, stresses and worries? Why cant you do it for once? Why cant you live life in my shoes and see if you can make it?
I bet you cant and I am glad you dont have to do what I do. I wouldnt want to wish this on anyone. *sighs*
I love the woman who watches my son and he loves her too. You can put your child(ren) in daycare, you just have to research and explore your options. It's just a woman (with early childhood degree) that runs it out of her home. She has a loving, clean home and she loves him like her own. What more could I ask for while I'm at work? There ARE people out there you can trust, but they won't come to you. If you truly want these things out of life, no one is stopping you, but you. Good luck!
I agree with Mommy Bunny. There are some really good day cares out there. You just gotta do your research. They arent gonna seek you out. Otherwise find a babysitter willing to work a flexible schedule. There are people you can trust, youre just choosing not to.
I also agree with the above. If you don't want to keep getting the shit end of the stick, stop taking it. Force the universe to give you what you want. You have to take initiative, not sit back on your haunches and whine about not making something of yourself. Because you're the only one who can, and it's not going to happen overnight. Work out a situation with family or friends, or find a spectacular babysitter and get your ass to school. I can imagine how hard it would be to trust someone with your children, but you have to if you want to better yourself.
It's going to be hard, but nothing, with enough drive and determination, is impossible.
Take care, and best of luck to you.
~Caitlyn.
Just because you don't trust a daycare doesn't mean that is the only form of childcare that exists. I feel for you and your situation, I really do. I know what it's like to feel stuck. But you aren't trying your hardest, because if you were, you'd come up with a compromise and find a babysitter that you could trust to keep your child and you would go back to school and get the degree that you want so badly. Like Mommy_Bunny said, YOU are the parent, YOU are the one who doesn't trust a daycare (which, I grew up the first 12 years of my life in a daycare and I'm perfectly fine... not all daycares are the devil), and YOU are the one who wants a better life. YOU do the work and YOU make it happen.