God, I had a crap day yesterday.
The running up to Christmas was great, spent time with my fiance[Stevie], friends and did a lot of shopping, trying to set things up for my mum.
I live with my grand parents, who are Jehovah's witnesses [They don't celebrate christmas]
Which doesn't bother me in the least, the only problem is I have to visit my mum who lives a few miles from us, with my two little brothers. Usually, this is fine, but the past couple of years she has just gone down hill dreadfully, severe drinking and taking drugs. I've done everything in my damn power to help her for the past 2 years, and in that time she acussed me and Steve of stealing, and then she disowned me for a week because i wouldn't lend her the last of my money, which was only £10. I've always lent her money, literally every time I see her, and she has the cheek of that, GR.
Anyways, I got there yesterday, finding out she had bought fuckall presents for my little brothers, a pair of boxers each, I think, but managed to get herself a £15 bottle of sambucca and 7 beers. Talk about put your kids first, selfish cow.
I was devistated, the 2 boys were so unhappy, no christmas tree was up, nothing. I'm glad me and my boyfriend bought them things or they'd literally have nothing.
The whole thing ruined my day, I don't personally care about Christmas, but I'd like to know that they're happy and enjoying it while they're still all excited about the day.
Grr, Makes me just want to slap her and tell her to wake up. Her kid's desperately need her and she's just oblivious to it..
Well today was pretty rubbish too, god knows what's wrong with Steve, but yesterday and today he has been in such a mood with me, hardly spoken to me or anything. I do think it's got something to do with yesterday, seeing the kids with nothing upset him quite a bit too..God knows..I just hope I haven't done anything wrong.
On the plus side, when he gets back we're going to the pub with a friend, Should be good, need to get out, feeling way to worked up and pissed off right now.
Phew, rant over, I feel better.
xxx
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