4/3/11

03/04/2011

I feel i should write, but i don't know what to say? there's not been any progress tbh. just feeling a bit low today because i have to head up to work in a few hours and if i see dave i don;t know how Im gonna feel. still got one or two bits to pick up from the flat. need to get the key off sarah. don't know if i should ask her to meet me at the flat after she picks the kids up from school, or not.. gives me a bit of time i guess.

I'm so ridiculously tired too, feel like i could go to sleep right here on the kitchen table lol, had toooooooooo many 5am starts and it's taking its toll! only one more to go before a day off though Yay. ....I just fell asleep at the table just then. ONE MORE DAY. I can do this. lol.

was getting a bit annoyed in work today - they keep calling me dyke in training..especially since ive become single - this doesn't annoy me - we all take the mick out of each other and my nickname is slag, hahahaha, Ive only ever been with one guy! so it's all in fun, but today, given the circumstances, it was hitting a nerve a bit; and some of them could tell it was annoying me a bit. this is exactly why i don't speak to anyone at work about how i really feel about stuff because although we're all friends and they were there for me when i split with dave, and supported me when i needed it...I just don't feel ready to take the step of telling them. not that it would make any difference to our friendships or anything, but I don't want them making a joke out of it..as Im not that comfortable with it yet - sure we all joke about it, but as far as they know, it's just a joke..I hope. It all started when i dropped a trifle and got cream and custard on the floor, and bec made a joke about how i should lick it up, and i was like EEEEEW hahaha, then she said 'nah i meant off me' and i was like 'oh ok! haha' then when the guys heard that..they were pissing themselves laughing. it was kinda funny though.

these cats are driving me mad - theyre not used to having someone home in the afternoons, and right now they havent left the kitchen where i am for hours - constantly wanting to be let in/out or asking for food, even though they've both been fed..dang animals..wouldnt swap them for the world though, lol.

I'm gonna see if i can get msn on this thing now - facebook chat is so shit..

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