well my little Evan is one week old today. In one way I can't believe its already been a week since he was born but in another I can't believe its ONLY been a week since hes been born. If that makes any sense at all LOL. Things have been going really good, almost too good, I hope it stays this way! Evan sleeps alot, hes starting to be awake more every day though. He pretty much never cries unless he is getting his diaper changed and hes hungry at the same time. Even when he wakes up in the middle of the night he just makes noise, doesnt really cry. He has been nursing pretty much every 1.5-2 hours during the day and sleeps really good at night. every night its a little more and its been pretty much 3 hours of sleep at a time for the last two nights. Which is AWESOME! Brady didnt do that until he was like a month old! He seems so tiny compaired to what Brady was. At one week old Brady was 9 lbs 5 oz and I am guessing Evan is about a pound less than that because monday he was 8 lbs 1 oz. He doesnt go back to the doctor until he is 2 weeks old. Brady has been doing really good with him. I think he is really starting to warm up to him more and more every day. At first he pretty much ignored him, now he likes to give him his pacifier and he will go sit next to the bouncer and look at him and smile at me. He will tickle him and kiss him if I ask him to. He sat next to him yesterday and touched his head really softly and kept smiling at me. It seriously makes my heart want to explode lol. I love my kids so much they are both such angels. I hope Evan keeps this disposition. Brady has his moments when I think he is just looking for attention and acting out a little but it hasnt been too bad. I think it just looks like I am holding Evan alot to him because I have to nurse him so much and he doesnt understand what I am doing.
In other news I am feeling pretty good. I am still a little sore down there but it is definitely not too bad. I have been feeling a little bit of what I guess is baby blues. probably just my hormones getting back to normal. For some reason they seem to hit me the hardest while I am nursing. I guess its just all the hormones that come with it. I feel alot of mommy guilt because of Brady. Its hard to explain. I know he will grow to love Evan its just a little hard for me right now to learn how to manage my time with the two of them. And I probably feel worse about it than Brady really feels, because before if he was playing alone for a little bit I didnt think much of it but now I feel really guilty like i should be playing with him more. I feel guilty that I don't take him outside to play more. I just need to give us all more time to adjust, we have only been a family of 4 for a week. I know it will get better we just need to adjust, I need to adjust to being a mother of 2. It is going to be really hard for me too when I go back to work. We decided I will go back June 22, its so soon and I wish I could take longer but we really can't afford it.
well I have babbled enough for now. |
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