Is it silly that I have baby brain already I forgot that there's more to tell?
My appointment yesterday went well as I said...
The only downside was that they couldn't get any blood out of me. My veins like to hide.... and then tend to roll when they do find one lol.
So I have to go to the lab to get my blood taken for testing. It'll give then a better idea of the hormone level and all that. I think they put glucose on that test too... so I'm gonna have to drink a bunch of icky stuff apparently. Joy 
Crazy doesn't want me to go to the hospital where she works unless my Aunt Carole isn't there. Cause she's got a big mouth and will tell everyone in the family. And my mom doesn't want me to tell anyone yet.
It's getting really frustrating.
I told her that I told Brenden cause he's going to be a nurse and knows about stuff. That seems to be okay.
I really just want to get telling my family over with.
It's causing more stress than it's worth right now, keeping a secret like this.
I can understand how she wants to delay their disappointment, because as much as they love me, this is going to make them think I'm even more of a fuck up than they already though before.
ANd trust me, I was the black sheep of the family for quite some time before this.
But I'm reaching the point where I don't care what they think anymore... Actually I've been there for a while.
Now I'm just waiting for my mom to come to her senses about it.
Don't get me wrong, I do love my family. But they can be kind of judgmental at times. And single motherhood isn't the kind of thing they want in the family... but you know what?
My life, my baby.
My decision.
SO if they don't like it?
Fuck'em.
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