NoJoMo 13

11/13/2010

Seriously, my life is boring to the extreme, at least in my opinion, even with all the drama that surrounds it. For someone who hates drama, I sure get enough of it, don't I?

Yesterday was a day like any other. I got up, showered and dressed, fought off the hot flashes and chills, and Lord, I cannot wait to go grocery shopping today to buy some Progesterin cream to see if that will help alleviate some of these menopausal symptoms. If it works, I will be so happy, I might even turn a cartwheel - and even when I was a cheerleader I could never DO a cartwheel.

Corri and I spent the day watching our soaps, or at least one of them, after we finished watching last Sunday's episode of Desperate Housewives. We still love that show. I was a bit worried about her because she didn't seem her jovial self, but I asked if she was okay, and she was fine. She got a phone call from the lady at the rehab center who told her that a bed would be available for her at the end of November, beginning of December. A little while later, the woman called back and said someone gave up a bed and so Corri will be going into rehab Monday morning at 9:00am.

Finally, the moment we've all been waiting for. She's going to get the help she needs. She's actually a little bit excited about going in, and I'm taking that as a good sign that she is ready for this. She is welcoming the change in her life. Thanks be to God. I hope it sticks. Please keep my sister and my family in your prayers and good thoughts as she begins this journey into recovery from her addiction. We're going to need it. There will be family counseling offered as part of her rehab, too, and I foresee a lot of old wounds being opened up again because these are things my sister has been holding onto, the demons that led her to drink in the first place. A massive ripping open, bleeding, and then healing is going to take place and there's no doubt in my mind, it's going to be painful.

I was going to give my sister this mini-pillow for Christmas, but since she is going into rehab and will be in there for Christmas, I gave it to her yesterday. It's a Boyd's Bear pillow, showing two bears on roller skates with their arms wrapped around each other. It says, "Sisters hold each other up." I want her to take it with her to rehab, and she's going to. She loved the pillow. We both cried a little when I gave it to her, but they were happy tears because really, despite her problems and mine, we really do hold each other up. I'm going to be fairly lost without her around every day.

Jason came to pick her up last night to go to a movie and then she was spending the night at his place. They aren't really dating, just keeping it casual for the time being. Jason doesn't know about her drinking problem or rehab, and last night she was planning to tell him. I think he's a decent guy and he won't abandon her once she tells him, but say a prayer or cross your fingers or whatever that he doesn't. I know he wants to date her, but she told him that right now she couldn't because her life was about to get very complicated. She hadn't gone into detail with him about it, but she was going to last night. I truly hope it went well.

As for me, I still don't have a second car, and my phone calls to my brother have gone unanswered. That's fine. If I have to go to one of those used car lots, buy here, pay here deals, then that's what I'm going to have to do. I want to try and get a part time job during the holidays. I am planning to apply at Target or perhaps even Wal-Mart. I just can't do it if we only have one car. Al doesn't like me driving at night, and truthfully, neither do I. I don't see as well at night as I used to and he says my driving at night scares him. To be honest, it scares me a little, too. I hate it. If I can avoid having to go pick him up and making that long ass drive, I will avoid it. I'm not really thrilled about the idea of going into retail, but I'll do what I have to do. It beats going to work at McDonald's or Burger King, you know? I may even try to apply at one of the book stores or something.

Anyway, I spent the rest of the evening by myself. I turned the television off and monkeyed around on the computer while doing laundry. And apparently I fell asleep on the sofa while waiting for the dryer to go off. I didn't wake up until about 4:30 this morning. Al said he tried to wake me and get me to go to bed, but I just grunted at him. He also said Shiloh was playing with my feet and I kicked him, which I don't remember doing at all. When I woke up, Jericho was on top of my chest and Shiloh was laying at my side. I must not have kicked him too hard cuz he wasn't mad at me if he was laying beside me.

At any rate, I sent Al to bed when I got up because he wants to go get an oil change today. I told Jason to have Corri home by 10:30am so we could go get our grocery shopping done when A gets back. And then I'd like to go to church tonight, but we can always go tomorrow morning if need be. I'd like to go to confession and take Corri with me, either way because she missed church the past two Sundays. I'd like her to go before she goes into rehab. There's much to be thankful for.

Now, don't anybody get mad at me for what I'm about to say, but come payday, I'm buying some weed. I need something to alleviate the panic attacks and the menopausal symptoms, and my tranquilizers just aren't effective for the panic. I can't keep having massive attacks like I have been because they are frightening and draining, so I'm going to try smoking a doobie, or at least take a couple of hits off one each night, or if a panic attack occurs. It's the only thing I can think of to give me some relief.

About the Botox thing, I guess it's not Botox that we're talking about. It's collagen injections to make those lines go away, or else they will take some fat from my ass and inject it into my face to plump up the deep lines around my mouth and between my eyebrows. I don't know what they do around my eyes, but that isn't as big a concern as the lines. Either way, it's not happening anytime soon, so nobody panic. I can't afford to do anything cosmetic right now anyway. It's pretty far down on the list of things we need to accomplish.

Well, I guess that's it for now. If anything exciting happens today, you'll all be the first to know.