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06/05/2012

I only have one brother and my brother married to a women, and they have three children who are wonderful. They are the best three kids in the world and I wouldn’t trade them for anything else. Honestly the best thing that coming out of that marriage is the kids.

My brother has lot of unresolved issues with our father. He abusive and I think he has an issue about homosexuality. He gets( buys) sex toys and shoved them up his ass in the shower in the middle of the night. If he’s not gay why won’t he do that with his wife? I guess my sister in law doesn’t want anything to do with it. My brother also has a drinking problem in which I’m not sure if he drinking or now but I guess he still has his episodes. He’s diagnosed with anxiety & is bipolar not sure if it’s type one or two. He thinks psychologist and psychiatrist are load of shit but I have a feeling that they told him something that he wasn’t ready to hear. I don’t know what exactly what he talked with them or whatever but I honestly think they said something he didn’t want to hear. It could be anything. He has no right to Hit my sister ‘in law and sometimes he too rough with the kids in punishment and cruses and says harsh things to their face. I can’t sand that fact and I withnessed this once they were here when there was two (kids) and she went out back (cause he was out there) I didn’t hear what was said but I saw him attack her and he came in with the ( middle child now) acting all innocent. When they ague you never ever hear him but you always hear the girl. I can’t stand him sometimes I love him dearly but I sometimes wish he’d leave.

My sister’in law, is very much part of our family but my god can she be a total fucking bitch. No matter what I do I’m always immature! She brings her kinds in a augment when it has nothing to do with them. “ You are on my bad list right now, so you can’t see the kids either” that’s fucking stupid. I don’t know I’m not a parent but I do know if I’m angry with that person doesn’t mean I’ll prevent them from seeing my kids expressly if they are their Aunt or Uncle. When my brother isn’t being automatic yell, or being overly rough with his children when he is correcting them or punishing them she corrects them in front of the kids. Now the two oldest ones expressly the oldest child plays them soo bad it’s not even funny. I don’t say anything because it’s not my place. She will also keep running her mouth until it is a problem and or a fight perhaps until there is something there. She runs her mouth. She also doesn’t want to hear that she and Eric are horrible to each other and she didn’t want to hear it and she said “He derives it because he hits me” I bit back “ then leave him” but I actually said “Well, that’s what I tell other people that you are horrible to each other” And didn’t elaborate because I’m sick of explaining myself. That I meant family, when family talks about you because family dose no matter if you are sitting there or not. She got pissed at me and so they,( brother, her, kids) left. I wrote on Facebook saying how I hate fights and she commented that she tired of my immature shit and I need to learn to keep my mouth shut. I felt like saying I’ll never keep my mouth shut but I put on private. I didn’t delete it. I figured everyone doesn’t need to know what’s going on with that. [We clash a lot.]

Both of them alienate themselves. They only call when they want money. In which now mom can’t help them anymore. Because of them my mother is broke. Mom can’t help them because now certain circumstances other than money mom can’t help. She has to say no. They have done other things while some personal issues were going on and I’m angrier with my brother because mom is his mom and he still could have visited her even if he didn’t want to see her in the hospital when she was in the rehabilitation place he could very well taken the bloody car while sister in law stays home with the kids. Like… after work … like when the older child has baseball practice. They did visit when she was home once and her grandchildren thought that grand mom would forget about them. They needed clarification. Even if you were going to come up on mother day and even if mom missed your call they still could have gone up and visited after baseball if they had a game or whatever the place didn’t have any set hours. Just looking for an excuse not to go up I also think it’s showing that I love hate them. Sometimes I don’t care if I don’t see them even the kids. I get to a point where I stop caring. Ever since that little fight they haven’t called mom. I just thought they were angry with ME not MOM! THAT pisses me off! They are bull shit accept the kids. They use my mother and it shows a lot.

I’m done my rant. I’ll update again soon hopefully not this negative.