superior,

09/21/2009

you are inferior.

the past few days,
i cannot control my emotions.
i cry, over the stupidest, most pointless things.

my friend mailed me a package,
and i put the cd in she mailed me and just started crying.

no, everything is not okay.
but i dont even know what it is that is wrong.
i feel like im suffocating,
but it's my own doing.

i was really close to checking myself into the hospital last night.
sometimes, i am afraid of myself.
sometimes, i wish i could escape my own skin.

i just feel like i keep getting struck down,
further.

if it were as easy as telling myself to be happy,
i would have done it a long time ago.

its been a while since i let myself feel anything.
since i paid attention to the mess i have made for myself.

once i am finished mourning,
i will try and clean it up.


thank goodness for friends.