(Okay, so it isn't morning anymore, but it's never too late to restart your day. This is part of my new year's goals. I want to do this every morning.)
1. The things you’re grateful to have
My family. Welcome at my family home. Eggs and popcorn. Perc and pred. A chance to better my life. Support. The internet.
2. The things you’re grateful NOT to have
Drama. A boyfriend. A girlfriend. Anywhere to be. Cancer. Lupus. A thousand other diseases I could have and don't.
3. What you don’t like about yourself
I'm get too locked up in other people's opinions of me. It's a truly debilitating anxiety/obsession.
4. How you can change what you don’t like about yourself
I'm just trying to keep in mind that what isn't my problem isn't my problem. Going to sleep helps reset things, but I'd like to come up with something better. Maybe just practice. Practice in letting go, practice in stepping back, and practice in finding the amusement in the situations. Also, I think, taking the time to look in the mirror and telling me what I think. My opinion should be the most important, but how will I know what it is if I don't tell me?
5. Your greatest qualities
I'm strong. I'm intelligent. I'm occasionally perceptive when I put some effort into it. For some reason, people are attracted to me (and not just in the sexual/romantic way) so I must be doing something right.
6. Your life goals
Treat myself better. Minister. Be a mommy. Be an inspiration and a role model. Own a home. Build a sanctuary. Be self-sufficient. Have my actions personify my morals. Radiate joy.
7. How yesterday’s problems are today’s motivation
Yesterday, I got very debilitated by circular thoughts of being misjudged. I'm using this to remind me that, while reputation is important, the only people who's opinion of my reputation that matter are people who matter to me. I was also very sick, and yet got a lot done. I'm using this to remind me that just because I'm disabled, I don't have to give up hope on accomplishing anything. It is not an all or nothing proposition. Goals done in pieces still get done.
8. What you want to do today
I want to keep myself from indulging in the Drama that's dangling so adorably in front of me. I want to get the house de-Christmas-ed. I want to eat less sugar, and drink more water and no alcohol. I want to pay my bills. I want to figure out how the hell I'm getting to Algonquin. I want to clean the bathtub.
9. How you can make someone else’s day a little brighter
I'm going to make a point to give Ryan my full attention, listen carefully and contribute to the conversation, because I know how alone and helpless he feels right now, and this I can give him.
10. You only have one life
Today is never going to come again. Also, I am most likely going to see tomorrow. Live in the balance, ne? |
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