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I got some shit for my last entry title. Not many understood, and I forgot, my back story isnt here. Lets make this quick and sweet, shall we? I have had a issue with my blood for the last..oh...life time or so...anyways. No one can figure out whats causing my issues. I have had several strokes, I have seen deaths door step. At one point, they diagnosied me with Lupus, which we still are not sure I dont have...but, we do know I have something, and it is killing me, slowly. It has sped up this year, for whatever reason. But it has. And, my "Like a Cancer patient" entry, wasnt so far off. I have been facing the fact that death might take me sooner then Id like, and no, I dont like to admit that, but when your told you might not see Christmas of 2010...then you question everything. I go to the cancer society 3 times a week, a normal dr 2 tiomes a week, and a neuro at least once a month, if not more. So. Like a cencer patient, isnt a strech. You try being in my shoes, and tell me this shit has been easy. Until then, dont give me guff for my titles or such. Because only I know how bad it is right now... |