Medically speaking I have a low pain tolerance, "Mentally" speaking I would say I have a high or at least experience pain tolerance.
This entry is about my "Mental" Pain tolerance.
Not so much about how I tolerate mental pain, but about a guy.
Okay I am going to use twilight as an example.
Not because I like it, but because most people will have watched or read it at least once.
So you know how Bella swan is totally head over heals in love with Edward?
They date and everything is great and then Edward runs away and says "You can't love me you are my pray" Or something similar you get my drift?
Bella ends up totally crushed and doesn't talk, or eat, or really live.
This happened to me a guy hurt me so bad I couldn't mentally or physically function, I depended on my mum for at least a month.
Well months go past things get better and the guy who was first my best friend then my boyfriend but ALWAYS, like a brother to me gets in contact with me.
I had finally gotten over it and all healed.
So we talk and I say "Would you like to meet up?" And he says: "Yes."
I sit here in my bed thinking about all this.
Can we just be freinds? Of course.
Could we be more then friends again, I won't go there that is his call I am not going to bring that up and sound like the obsessed fan girl I was.
What happened? I know the answer but I don't want to answer it but lets, because the questions you don't want to answer should be answered.
He got sick from the stress at work, I was mentally ill at the time shit hit the fan we broke up I didn't take it lightly I depended on him at the time. I got obsessed couldn't just be friends and yeah it got messy.
That isn't even close to all of it but I can't bare to write it.
So that is this entry done. |
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