wow. i haven't updated in FOREVER. sheesh. what's up with that.
where to begin....
so the last time I was truly here was in April. School was still in session. Summer now. School ended at the end of May. Before that, all of us teachers got told that we were not invited to teach next school year. The school was going in a "new direction." We were all "fired" without being fired. It was probably one of the saddest moments I've ever had. I was a good teacher, dammit. I know I griped about not completely understanding the weather thing, but that doesn't mean I can't teach. But I learned a lot about myself. If this theatre major who thinks with a more creative brain can teach SCIENCE, I can teach anything. I really miss those kids. I loved them. Despite all their shenanigans and their overall teenage hooligan attitude, they were awesome. I'm really really going to miss them.
So as soon as I heard the other teachers weren't coming back, and before I got my news, I sent many resumes out. And school ended and I sent out even more. Just what I love. A summer of sending resumes. (note the sarcasm). I really thought I found somewhere permanent. Even though I was only part time, I pictured myself coming back and teaching full time for many years. Watching those kids get older and eventually graduate. And now I was without teaching job, AGAIN, and stuck looking at a future at Wal-Mart. blegh. At least my pharmacy boss gave me more hours when summer started.
I ended up having a week off right after school ended. I really needed a vacation from both jobs. I was going crazy.
Since then, I went on two job interviews. Both for private special needs schools. One of them for a middle school position, and another to teach kindergarten. The middle school position decided to go with another candidate which really bummed me out. I really liked that school.
However, the other school ended up hiring me as their kindergarten-1st grade teacher! woo-hoo! I'm going to be teaching kindergarten! I'm excited and completely terrified.
AND..... I put in my notice at wal-mart. So after six and a half years, I'm going to be pharmacy free. My last day is less than a month a way in the beginning of August. No more Wal-Mart Pharmacy drama. What am I going to do with myself?? Am I crazy for quitting? Am I being too spontaneous? This teaching position is going to be full time. It's salary. It's exactly what I wanted. Why am I so scared? This is something I've wanted for so long. And it doesn't feel real.
Anywho, that's me. Who else should I talk about. Should it be about Meghan? Orrr the current relationship between Lindsay and Cameron?
Meghan it is.
Meghan. About three weeks ago, Meghan up and left her boyfriend and moved back down here with her kid. No job. No car. No money. And she's living at her friend, Heather's house. She went from talking to me every single day for years. To almost completely ignoring me. Because she's playing the woh is me, my life sucks game, and while I'm always there for her, she doesn't want to hear what I have to say. She, Lindsay and I hung out together like old times, and it was fine, but off. And the night of the third, she was supposed to stay the night at my place. Friday night is usually game night with Russ, Cameron, Lindsay, and I. We play board games until the wee hours of the morning. Cameron and Lindsay were a little too cuddly for her taste, and she decided not to be around us anymore and asked Heather to come pick her up. She hasn't really talked me since. She told me she can't really be around Lindsay and Cameron for a while. I asked her if she can just be happy for her friend. She basically said no. I told her she has to snap out of this funk. Apparently, it was too blunt for her. (after she asked me many times for years just to be blunt with her. hello, she's my best friend. It's my prerogative.) But I guess she's mad at me, and won't talk to me. I'm done crying over it. Okay, maybe not. Because I just want my best friend back. I'm really worried about her. BUt all she wants to do is sit around and smoke weed and sulk. It's what she did the entire time she was hanging out with us. Don't get me wrong. I'm a pothead and an advocate for marijuana. But when when you're spending the only money you have it, and ignoring the people around you who actually love you and want to hang out with you, something's wrong. She'd rather spend her time at Heather's doing nothing. Then she complains on facebook that she's bored and wants to go out. I'm here if she wants me, and if she knows me so well, she knows that. But I can't reach out to her any more. My energy is spent. She doesn't want to hear it from me. I love her to death. I just want her back. Russ said that my friend, the one I knew, is gone and not coming back. I can't lose hope.
Okay. enough bitching about Meghan.
Lindsay and Cameron!
Lindsay has been my other best friend since 10th grade. (Lindsay, Meghan, and I lived together for a while). Cameron is one of Russ' best friends and lives in our apt complex. Lindsay and Cameron have recently decided to begin a relationship. It's awesome! and weird at the same time. lol. I'm SO incredibly happy for her. Lindz has never truly had a boyfriend. She's a 31 year old virgin. She's one of the most amazing people I know, but just really guarded. She was hurt by a guy when she was a teenager and had never really recovered. A few months ago, Cameron texted me saying that he was interested in her. They've known each other since Russ and I got together over seven years ago. Not very well, but their paths crossed. They were both in our wedding party. We had all hung out together a few times. They were facebook friends. When Cameron texted me, I was elated. I told him to start slow with her. He has to know her as a friend first, because she has trust issues. Then she started coming to our game nights. It's been a regular thing for a while. Almost every Friday night. Just something to do. A few weeks ago, they FINALLY starting going on dates. Then just last week, they finally declared to each other their boyfriend/girlfriend status.
I've never seen Lindsay so happy before. It's awesome. And also weird. Because Cameron's like a brother to me. And of course Lindsay is like my sister. Kind of incestuous. lol
so that's basically life right now.
I have y'all's bloops to get caught up on. Sorry I've been absent. If anyone's on facebook, find me
here.
peace!
-mel-
6:20pm
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