Intro...

01/02/2009

Well ok lets see where should i start...IM VERY OPEN so i'll say anything and everything:O
ok im 21 years old
a virgo
ex gymnast love being physically active(im like a monkey)
my days at this point in my life consist of:
workdays; well work obviously which i get off early, go home which yay is now mine and my sisters just recently moved out of the parents house it's awsome
and usually just chill out if theres something o do i don't stay out late!

any other day (usually wednesday night-saturday after noon); no work so i'll either chill at home doing whatever usually consists of playing with maggie my sisters dog, blazing, eating, walking maggie, cleaning if needed, listening to music very loudly, watching very little tv and of course tons of computer time now that i just bought myself an Imac sooooo pretty .
If there is any type of chilling or partying with friends i'll be there (usually always the same few people)
partying consists of either someones house doing drugs, lots of shows usually also doing drugs(alot of my friends are in metal bands), my place...doing drugs, lately, rarely go to a club/rave/dark rave and obviously on drugs ...yah this is kind of what my life has turned into over the past couple of years but it wasn't until 2008 that i experimented with all different types of drugs.
i do have to say i know there is NO smart way to do drugs cause no matter what you do if it's bad for your body it's well stupid lol but hey we only live once so to each there own!
So i say to myself i do drugs smart because
A. i research everything
B. only take the minimum dose especially when first trying it!
C. i never buy on spot so i NEVER am in debt with NOONE, but there are people who owe me plenty
D.i have my priorities straight so i usually know when not to be doing it (have gone through my very short addictive stage with some things (mostly ketamine))
E.If i touched something that i know shouldn't ever do it again and say to myself i'll never do it again i stick by it.

these are my reasons why i think i do it in a smart way lol

but anywho thats my day to day life.

i am single havent had a serious relationship for a lil more than 3 years i don't understand why?
not to be concieded or anything but i am a nice looking canadian italian girl with a hell of a personality on her im very chilled out but know when to have fun. Not at all materialistic ( i treat myself here and there but hey i work hard for my money) Im independant but wouldn't mind someone to be close to do nice things for and have nice things done in return.
You know i have just developed this new thing which was that right there over the past month i realised that the only way im going to get a nice looking nice guy is if i stop being soo sexual i have heard from more than 1 guy that im TOO sexual...WHAT THE HELL IS TOO SEXUAL WHO DETERMINES THAT!!! i thought but when i started hearing it from more than one guy usually ones i like than i start to think...maybe i am!! in the way that i kinda would go along with what ever a guy wants (thats if i want to of course) which is kind of true i've had enough guys also tell me i should be a porn star so hey maybe thats why they think im TOO sexual i act too much like a porn star when im having sex...
so from being lil miss too sexual and sleeping around with who ever I want (keyword: I)i think im going to take some guy advice and turn it down a notch meaning no sex, hey i just said sex that doesn't mean i can't have a hot make out session but i will try to actually make it with a guy that i'm into not some guy who doesn't give two shits about me and has a girlfriends calling them!!!(once even a wife)

so yah that is me and my newme_maybe name because i figure im going to have a new years resolution and the grand public of bloop diary can help me to achieve it by reading and commenting
so hey thanks for reading and i hope i didnt bore the shit out of you hope you enjoyed !!

peace <3