sunday update

So life's been crazy, in a good way, I think.

- November marks 2 years since I last cut. I feel...happy! I mean, I don't miss it very much and when I'm super down, I don't think "I want to cut." Instead I just calm myself down or distract myself. I plan on telling my mom at some point this month - I wrote her a letter and everything but I don't want her trying to talk to me about it. It still feels weird talking to her about my cutting.

- The kittens have been driving us crazy! They stay awake a good portion of the night which is why we've adopted this no naps during the day policy. Nessie is slightly bigger than Zoey and picks on her a lot which we've been working on. We've bought them toys, a bit of wet food, and other random stuff. They are super cute.

- Math class is going fucking FANTASTIC! I am 4 points away from getting an A in the class. I am super amazed! My professor is fucking great and explains things so well that within the first 10-20 minutes, I manage to get the stuff she explains and end up being bored in class. She's super cool and funny too.

- Work is great. I'm working with Carmen now and NOT Julie which is so fucking awesome. Cynthia (my boss) told David (the new guy) to work with Julie instead and ever since Cynthia told Julie of this change, Julie hasn't really talked to me which is AWESOME!!!! I am so happy about that and it's nice working with Carmen too.

- Thomas moved to NM. I think it was for the best, really. He seems to be happy there and I don't miss him. I cried when he moved though (while on the phone w/ Jose) because I realized how much he had really changed and how idiotic I had been.

- Things with Jose are great. He's been super sweet and good to me. He stayed on the phone with me until I fell asleep last night because I was seeing stuff in my room and it scared me BIG TIME. So we talked a lot...and we somehow always manage to flirt a lot too. I can't wait to see him...I miss him a lot.

I think that's about it. I'm having bad days and good days but I'm still hanging on and pushing forward.

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