Why do we, as human beings, find pleasure in placing ourselves into relationships that are far from good, and then when we realize just how bad we are, we stay in the relationship with the diluted concept that we can change this person, we can make them better, or they're not all bad, they've done nice things? Why do we ignore the advice from our friends when we complain about the horrors, and continue defending our bad relationships as the only people left who believe they're going to work, when even the significant other doesn't seem to want to put forth the effort that actually being in a relationship takes? Why do we insist on being with this other person, when in reality, they've left us alone, hanging out to dry?
Not sure where that came from really, it's not derek, he's been very good lately. I can't remember the last time we though, but then, I can't remember the last time we actually spent the day together. I mean, he may only be working three days a week, but he works all night, and then sleeps all day, so...when do we really have time together, you know? We were supposed to go out to kennywood this sundayfor my dad's company picnic but...my mom broke her kneecap this week, and derek works 11pm-8am starting saturday night...like...wtf? How is this even going to be possible? He wouldn't even last an hour on his feet, let alone an entire day. So basically, goodbye last chance for derek and i to enjoy doing something together this month.
I'm just frustrated. Noone at work will talk to me, what i did, i'm not sure. I haven't said a single thing about anyone there, I haven't agreed with anyone else's fickle comments about how much they love/hate each other, the only thing I've done was say nice things about people. And noone talks to me. even crazy energetic guy won't talk to me now..it's fuckin' ridiculous is what it is... |
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