I've been feeling lost in thought of late. I'm not dwelling on things, but I wonder what would have happened if he had just gotten the help he needed when he originally started displaying his declining mental health. Of course, he also needs to address that entire gaslighting thing he does, but I suppose the wondering what if isn't really going to get me anywhere. And the petty part of me is quite pleased that his life has been so fucked up that he was forcibly transferred from the LCBO he's used to working at. He let his own drama explode all over his work. The shocking thing is that he has always in the past prided himself on his professionalism. I joke about this, but I swear, every man/boy I've ever been with seems to have some shocking mental explosion after we've broken up. Sometimes it happens just before the end, but it always manages to happen...so I break guys? Lol Kaitlin says no. She says it's because I know who I am, am confident in that, and men/boys/whatever don't really want that. They want someone who they can take care of or make into their own version of what their girlfriend/partner should be.
Anyway, so our NYC trip is coming up soon. Excitement! Pretty pumped about that. Getting my mental packing list going and I'm really looking forward to not being at work or even in the country for a few days. I'll be excited to be out of contact with the world. Yaaaassssss Vacation!
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