&DearKrystle.Now that story is over.
Ricky and i have officially broken up for good. i got tired of all the crap.
Here is the story...
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I have been helping Ricky get his license back. driving him around everyday, day in and day out. doing everything for him. taking him to work, calling him everyday to find out what time he was off work, pick him up from work, take him to and attend AA with him (2Hrs Wait Time), take him to treatment (2Hrs in the car waiting for him), and to probation(30minutes wait time in car). every week it was the same. everyday we had something to do for him. and really i had no problem being his taxi.
Ricky had a trust fund from his grandparents, it was for college, but they let him tap into it for him to get his life back on track and get his DUI's taken care of. he took out the first chunk. payed off about half the things he was supposed to pay then blew the rest of the money. so he takes out the rest of the money. and he says that he was going to take care of the rest with that money and his pay check combined.
He didnt get anything paid with the rest of the money.. but the week after he goes out and buys a 250 dollar bong that he really doesnt need.
It really bothered me. i have been doing everything i can for this boy and he goes and blows the money on nothing. and then i ask him about it later, and he has this sly look on his face, like he knows that he pissed me off.
see the thing is... i cheated on Ricky a few months ago. i told him that it was going to happen in the beginning.. it all depended on if Chris Hoyle came back or not... and i didnt think it was likley but chris came back... Ricky and my relationship had been going sour for a while and it was the last weekend he was on house arrest.. and so i stayed at my house for the weekend.. and chris hoyle came over to hang out.. i didnt have sex with him... but we did do other things... see the thing with chris hoyle is... he is my first love. the one i gave my heart to a long time ago. and we dated in jr hing on and off for two years. then he moved away to guam.. six years we have had this open relationship going on. and he has always been telling me that he is going to come back to me but it had never happened... so i took Ricky being on house arrest as my chance. after chris left that weekend i went over to ricky's and i told him what happened. he didnt want to break up with me so we stayed together. i told him that i would continue to help him get his shit on track.
i was pretty miserable in our relationship. i let it slip to him that when he got his license then i probably wasnt going to be around much longer. so that is why i think he bought the bong. because he was so close to getting his license. and he didnt want to loose me. but he was going to loose me no matter what. he knew i wasnt completely happy. and it was either get his shit done then loose me or loose me before. so i was trying to stay at our relationship as long as possible to help him out.
then the other morning he set his alarm for 2 am to do his laundry then he forgot to set the alarm for me to get up for work. he called into work that morning for no reason at all. just because he didnt feel like going. which kinda pissed me off a bit because since he has blown all the money, he needs all he can get to get his license back. i freak out on him because i wake up at 8 30 and im going to be late for work. i worked at 9, usually i drop him off at 6 at the safeway every morning then go home and take a shower and get ready for work. leaving my house at 8 30. my house is only 30 minutes away from my work. ricky's is 20 minutes away from my house in the opposite way of my work. he was like what should i do take a shower real quick? i'm like.... "Ummm.... NOOO... i want you to get your shit and get into my car. im the one who needs a shower right now not you. you can take one when we get to my house. i'm pretty pissed because he asked that... so we get in the car on our way to my house. i ask him what his plans were for the day because he took off work, and he was like im going to go to AA. i asked him what else he was going to do..and he said chill around your house waiting for you to get home... i was like.. NO... you can do my laundry. then i went to work leaving my house at 9. i get to work at 9 30 (I'm Late) i have to deal with this chick that drives me nutts all day. and i worked a little later so im in a pretty lousy mood when i got home. i come in the house, ricky is on the couch. i sit down next to him say hello. then he starts questioning why im home so late. it was 5 30. then my sister calls. i answer it. i'm talking to bethanie when Ricky asks for a Cigg, he was like can i have one now or do you want me to wait until we leave for Treatment? i give him one. then after i get off the phone with bethanie i go outside to where he was. ask him what time we were going to treatment and he said it started at six. so i said ok lets go. i freaked out on him in the car. because im so tired of driving him around and doing all this shit for him all the time. i had a shitty day. i just got home from work, i was hungry, still needed to take a shower because i couldnt before work, and i just wanted to relax, but no... i had to drive him somewhere once again. i told him in the car that i wasnt going to be around forever. but i wasnt going to break up with him that day.
The Next morning i drop him off at the safeway then i go home. i have no work. i'm still in a haze because i just dont know what to do with us anymore. so i decided i needed to clear my mind and think, so i went to my safe haven of Port Orchard. i Called up ricky to ask him if he could find a ride home from work. he was like no i cant. i told him i was going to port orchard for the day and i was not going to be there to pick him up.
I Took Alisa with me to Port Orchard, we got lunch with my mom, then i dropped her off at pete's. then i went on my way to visit who i wanted to. it was nice. i felt very relaxed being there, and it really did help me think and clear my mind. i didnt want to talk to ricky at all this day. and we have fought in the past about my space and how when i am in port orchard i would like my space and if i want to talk to him the i would call him. but if not then dont even try... well he tried this night. made me a little upset, because im trying to clear my mind of him for a day and he cant even let me do that. i didnt talk to him all night. i didnt even call to tell him i got home that night.
The next day i call him to find out what time he needs me to pick him up from work. he said he had a ride to my house already. sweet.. i dont have to pick him up.. but all day i was in even a deeper haze then the day before. thinking about what i wanted in my life and relationship. he got to my house after he got off work. said he was going to have a smoke so i joined him outside. he asked me how PO was. i said good. he could tell that something was on my mind. he asked what was going on... asked me if i cheated on him of coarse. (i didnt) then i told him.. after today we are no longer.
he said that he wanted to go home now. so i said alright i would take him. so we go upstairs to pack up his belongings. he was like "You have some jewelery at my house.. i dont know how your going to get it though..." i was like "what do you mean by that?" he said that i was going to drop him off at his brother-in-law's house not his house. and he didnt want me in his house when he wasnt there.... i looked at him and said..."sweet.. thats cool.. i guess you can get out of my house then and find your own ride to mel's..." we fought a little bit more and i told him that i would drive him to his house so i could get my things then i would take him to mel's. so we get into my car and start our twenty minute drive to his house. we are fighting this whole time. we got up into Orting, when he says to me "...Oh Sorry, Dont go Crazy on me or anything and throw me out of your car." he is reffering back to a previous break up of mine, Chris Morrison. that is defantly somewhere you do not go when i am already pissed off at you.. so i turn on my blinker and pull into the safeway, (The same one i drop him off at every morning) he was like really?? really?? your going to do this??? i was like Yeah.. i am... now i'd advise you to get the FUCK out of my car, before you see me go crazy.. he said no.. i said get the Fuck out a little louder. then he grabbed his things and before he shut the door he said..." I just got one thing to say to you... you better watch your fucking back bitch..." and then shut my door.. well he still had some stuff in my trunk, to i hollered at him to get his shit out of my trunk.. he got his things and he asked me to grab his green court folder out of my back seat. so i did. and i had it under my arm when he comes around to my side of the car. he goes to grab it from me, and i grab his arm. i say to him..." what do you mean by that? i better watch my fucking back.. what the hell does that mean?" and he said "Something to piss you off". thats when i said.. "cool.. well here is something to piss you off... if i ever see your car on my road, or if i get any calls, texts, e-mails, or messages from you i am NOT afraid of getting a restraining order put against you and take your ass down. i want you out of my life for good." i shut my door and drove off. leaving him there at the safeway with all of his things, in the pooring rain, the day after his phone got shut off so he has to use a pay phone to call someone or walk the mile to Mel's House. his house is about 7 miles away from the safeway.
i cant believe he threatened me. i know that he isnt going to do anything, but it just really shows how childish and mature he can be. i'm just relieved that i am now out of the relationship moving on with my life. now its time for me to be happy. Now Time For A New Fish
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