remember to breathe

i think i've forgotten how to keep a journal – how weird is that?

i'm in my third week of summer vacation and i'm not as thrilled as i
a) thought i would be,
or b) usually am.

blah.

i found out today that i didn’t get the job that i was, like 99% for sure going to get.
i'm disappointed and relieved.

this means i’m going to stay in searcy for the summer and get to spend a lot of time with les and raven before they leave, which is wonderful.  but this also means that i'm missing out on a LOT of money, and may not be able to attend ATU next semester because of it.

fuck.

i’ve already put in my notice at RC – my last day is 28 may – but i don’t know what i'm going to tell them. i may just look for a different job, ‘cause i'm not sure that i even want to go back.  i'm sick of working with food.

-d