i love you

i did not get into how incredible yesterday was. he gave me a tour of his house, which i got lost in twice, and introduced me to his big old dog, tucker. he has tucker trained and everything, it was so cute (and impressive).

his room was nice too. his bed was the most comfortable thing i have ever laid on. he was being sooo lovey dovey it was ridiculous. especially after i told him about wanting to save myself for a long time.

we talked about the summer and how amazing it is going to be. every day he's going to have an empty house from 8 am-8 pm. i told him i'd drive over and crawl into bed with him and he said, "haha yeah. i'll wake up and be like 'mmm chelsea, that was the best dream i've ever had... oh wait..'" haha. what a dork.

he turns 18 in may but i feel like hes mature beyond my years in every possible way i can think of. he can drive much better than me, he has so much more common sense, and he's very experienced. oh godddd he must be so experienced. i am sore today from tensing up all of my muscles yesterday. my shoulders, my back, my legs, my arms. it is ridiculous. he'd pry laugh if i told him so.

i am already getting pretty comfortable with him. on a scale 1-10 its about a 7 and i've never reached a 5 with any of my boyfriends before. its only been a week and he makes me feel wonderful. i was wearing braided pigtails and my hair was straight. but when he was done with me my bangs were all curly and most of my hair was out of the braids and i couldn't stop talking about how stupid i must look. he kept laughing and looking me straight in the eyes and saying, "nonsense you're beautiful".

he wouldn't let me bring up albany, so i tried not to. but at one point he brought it up himself. hahaha and i don't know if i'm comfortable and you guys are comfortable with me talking about sexual endeavors... buttt i almost cried at one point. you would think that would make it so much harder to stay a virgin, but if i'm feeling this good at "second base" then why go on to sex? he loves that i am so easy to please, loves. but then i guess any guy would.

i cannot wait until this summer. when we were walking around the house and i was able to glare at him without him noticing i just kept thinking, "wow. he is so adorable and i cannot believe he loves me". i am going to miss him so much. he kept saying that to me too. how much he was going to miss me. now i feel awful for lying to him so we didn't have to hang out cause i was too cowardly to tell him about saving myself.

im glad i told him and im glad he complied.