I honestly wish I could tell you today went Peachy keen but it didn't.
This morning I swear I barfed up my lungs. (ewwy cuz it came out my nose too.(double ewwy))
My dog also bit my face, on accident, but none the less.
I then twisted my already broken ankle walking out to my moms car.
I then went to take my shoe off so I could look at my ankle and continued to beat the living hell out of myself by beaming myself square in the nose with my shoe.
All my dad seems to do lately is cause trouble.
I had the cops at my house at 3:30 in the morning Tuesday night.(threats and whatnot)
He wrote me off. (again)
This time it was more hurtful though, he said "You and Lex are the ones that abandoned me, Piss off Dezi don't contact me again".
Yeah, not cool bro.
It makes me feel better writing down my useless thoughts.
I mean, what good does it do?
Being able to look back and realize, wow, my life is shit.
I'm worried Jerrell might be cheating on me but what the hell? I don't mind. I guess.
Okay I mind a little. Especially with the girl who I think it is.
I love getting opinions from everyone on bloop. Especially Meagan
I'm going to online school now.
I just couldn't deal with the everyday torture of high school bullshit.
Hmm. Mean girls, perverted guys, I love my stoner friends, and my "bad" friends.
Seems like they're the only ones I can really talk to lately.
Yeah I have my mom, but sometimes you can't go running to mommy all of the time.
Wow. Shoot me in the face it's already 3:38am. Great I already know tonight is going to be another sleepless night. (day 4 of not sleeping at all).
I'm losing weight fast, I used to weigh 120
I have really dark circles under my eyes and I'm exhausted all of the time but as soon as I lay down I just lay in the dark and listen to my dog snore.
I can't think of ways to solve these problems. I wish I did but I don't.
My two year old little brother busted his head open and got 3 stitches.
Little dummy came home and headbutted the floor. *yes on purpose*
He's not so smart lol.
Sorry this entry is so long, I just need to let all of my shit-ness out. before I explode.
I already blew up at my now ex principle. I was suspended last Tuesday, for saying this.
Keep counting down honey. You missed your chance to be with your "one true love". You pushed him away. You controlled him. You made him feel like shit so you could feel like the queen. He's better than you. Better than me. It's him who has the choices. Not you. You lost yours when you started being crazy. I'm sorry. He's with me. We're happy. There's nothing you can do to shake us. EVER.
Is that bullshit or what?
I didn't get grounded for getting suspended though, I got grounded for skipping school because I didn't want to deal with the bitch.
I wish I could poof into dust and drift away. It'd be awesome to be able to do that.
Okay. I guess I'll write later. Buh-bye.
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