So i got worried today about some heart thing, i hate having health anxiety and i want it gone.
Rang my mum cos of the worrying and left a voicemail
My sister heard it and told me i need to get over it.
I now feel 100 times worse, i thought i was annoying people but that text and the fact my mum let my sister hear it shows that they are talking about me and sick of it
Well so am i, and that didnt help, i literally hate myself right now.
Im so sick of life trying to cope with a difficult job and first time looking after bills and a house and having to keep it all together and not being able to relax, always thinking always worrying its just getting harder and harder
I just feel so alone |