just spent most of the night talking to my sister on the phone, it was nice, though i do think how we can chat shit for so long.
we went on skype for a bit and i got to see my nephew he got hold of a hammer my sisters partner left lying around...so he put it away he has deffinately made me think about having children, before him i never wanted children. but now in the future, im wanting a little one
work was stressful today, i feel behind and theres a lot going on at work, a lot i have to learn before i can help my clients, but without training thats whats going to happen.
i also had a panic attack on the way home i tried not too, but i couldnt stop it, so had to speak to my sister, she tried tough love, didnt really work.
i got home and done some of the panic booklet ive been given by a counsellor, it was ok, made me realise the symptoms are panic symptoms, and also made me realise that just like panic attacks i need to learn that my ectopic heart beats cant kill me, eaiser said than done, but coming to that conclusion is a start atleast
one more day at work then 4 days off...woo cant wait |