Well, the last few days have been pretty good! For me to have four or five good days strung together has been a rare thing as of late. Sure there are moments when I long for some stuff from my past and its hard to get over but all in all I have been in good spirits, and who doesn't feel nostalgic from time to time? I guess thats just part of being human. It's a part I could do without but oh well.
I got an offer from a friend to move to Alaska a few days ago. I've been seriously considering it for a few reasons.
Reasons I shall share with you.
I've always wanted to go there, something about the place is mysterious and there is a certain glamour to it in my eyes for some reason. It's like America's only untouched land. I realize there are cities and it isn't like some wild frontier. It just seems, I don't know, cleaner and more free than the rest of America. Anyway, the place has always held an appeal to me.
The jobs and money to be made there is ridiculous if you know where to look, there is this huge misconception that its 100 degrees below zero all the time and dark 24/7. Sure there are parts of Alaska that stay frigid and parts where it's dark a lot. But it isn't pitch black, it's more akin to twilight. Therefore there are a lot of people who don't want to live there opening up some really good jobs. Some of which are high risk, but I'm not afraid of risk when I'm getting paid 65 dollars an hour.
My life here in Oklahoma has been easy as far as having a roof over my head and food to eat. But really, that's all I have. I don't really have friends, the ones I had all lied to me at some point or fucked me over. I don't give people a lot of chances. The few that I have given second and third chances to fucked it up. I'd rather have no friends then people I call "Friends" but are farthest from it. I do have one close friend who lives here so leaving him would kind of suck. But we have the type of friendship where we can go months or years without talking and then pick right back up where we left off. So I'm not worried about moving and drifting apart. Anyone else who I feel I'm close with doesn't live here and I never see them anyway. The only people I would miss are my parents. They are getting to the age where something could happen at anytime and I can't bare the thought of me being so far away if something did. I know I'm almost 28 years old. and people leave the closeness of their parents but they are really the only two people who have had my back through all the shit I've been through. I don't care what society says about it... I want to be here for them should something happen. When they are gone they are gone forever. I want to soak up as much time with them before that happens.
I've never had what most would call a good job, I get by and honestly I'm happy with just getting by. I don't really require a great deal to be happy. So it's not like I would be leaving this wonderful career behind. If anything, me moving to AK would better that situation.
My love life the last four years has been a complete wreck, there are no real prospects in that arena so no loss there. In fact I could use the change in scenery, so many reminders. But I'm haunted more by memories than I am anything physical that can be removed. But I still feel being in Alaska would produce new and happy memories that would hopefully supersede the bad... (Wishful thinking more than likely)
I have a free plane ticket there and back if I don't want to stay.. So I guess this shouldn't even be something I put thought to. It can just be a vacation if nothing else.
So anyway, that's what's on my plate at the moment. At least that's what's on my mind. It's 5:30 AM and I have to be awake by 1:30 to watch the Olympics with my buddy! So I gotta go!
Thanks for taking the time to read this most pointless post. |
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ha, kidding!