So yeah...this has been like the worst week ever. The worst. Dec. 02 was the worst day of my life. Hands down. I kinda wrote about most of it last time but i just summarized it cause i wasnt really all that great of shape to write about it.
The Dad
A week before my 18th birthday i found something out. I dont know if i wrote about it on here or not but yeah. I know my dads a class A asshole but wow. lol Apparently the only reason why he stuck around was because he was to broke to pay child support. He told my mom that when I turn 18 he was splitting because he wouldnt have to pay child support if he left. So ive been waiting for him to leave, he isnt exactly the kind to stick around anyways. Took him about a month to realize im 18 i guess. Well my mom and dad went to Kmart together and my dad seen Candy and her husband (her new ex husband not her old ex husband) and he told my mom to go to the back of the store. Long story and everything but my mom went into the bathroom to calm down and when she came out (the bathroom is right next to the shoe dept. right next to the really long mirrors) and she seen my dad in the mirror telling someone to shush and waving his head pointing to the bathroom as if to say 'shut up shes back there' and so my mom flipped out. Anyways...she wants to leave and i cant say that I blame her. We always did better without him anyways.
Im home now but thats because mom dosent work tomorrow and i dont want her here by herself. Im upstairs because i want to punch him in the face and im not just saying that. I will def. beat his ass in an instant if i didnt think my mom would freak out about it. But I know what kinda ass hole he is and I know that he would call the cops on me and since im 18 now ill end up in Jail for assault and no one i know has any money to bail me out. I havent talked to him and neither has she. Of course Laceys all smiles just acting like he isnt a screw up like she always is. How can he be so stupid? If i knew someone could bail me outta jail i swear on everything i love id punch him right square in the jaw. My mom wants to get an apartment now. Take the dog and go. We will probably end up in a different city but thats okay with me. As long as i can still see Kristin and the kids im good. She said wherever we go it has to be far enough away that he wont come back. Shes never actually talked about it like that before he always came back even when i bitched about it. But not this time i guess. Thats good though she shouldnt have to put up with that shes too good. She said something when i was bitching something like 'hes still your dad' and i said no hes not. He'll always be my father but he was never really my dad. If we do leave, even if it isnt out of Jackson if my mom and us get a different place and he cant live there, ill never see him again. Because we all know he aint gonna make no kinda effort to see any of us. Not that it really matters even when he was here he wasnt really 'here. We just got to the point where i could be in the room with him for 5 minutes without trying to choke him out. Selfish bastard only thinks of himself. Well im 18 now and he can go without paying child support. Thats all he wanted anyways, love you too dad.
The Aim
Im working on it, well was. But aim is still in the wrong direction. I seen Harvey today he helped with Jeff and Kristins new house again. He liked me today but thats how it goes, next time i see him hell be all eh and hate me again. It really does work like that one day he does and the next he doesnt. But I dont really care im pretty much pissed off at all guys right now. I still dont know if he knows that im pissed or not. I debated on not talking to him this morning when he got there but you know me and how i am so of course i did. Today at the house me and Harvey were upstairs painting a wall together and kristin was downstairs and she needed some paper towels so i threw her the roll and missed and of course being the smart ass she is lol said jees Cass your aim is all wrong. >_< I dont know if he caught that either because he didnt say anything. Im so sick of guys eh.
Well whatever I dont feel like writing anymore so until the next rant, later.
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