so Sarah {meaning myself ofcourse} has made a nasty habit out of ruining relationships for herself. she can't function in a relationship and slowly and involuntarily becomes disgusted with said other person. its like being in a cage for her. she can't care about anyone. okay i'm done with third person. so i find a boy. conveniantly enough he's younger than me. and lives a good while away. just enough to make everything difficult. he's been through more than what most can fathom. and came out the most beautiful person i've ever known. and he's my best friend. and i care about him too much to ruin everything.
sarah, really? you just have to let go and feel. it's easier than you think and you feel so much better when you do it.
so you like chris and things are complicated! that's life.
and though it sucks, you just have to go with it sometimes.
i love ya! so do what you want!
if you feel good, that's all that matters and you know that.