I`m in love with him....for years I've been in love with him. It started in elementary school. We'll call him Forbidden fruit...i'll be putting this on account on f/o after awhile due to exactly who he is. Anyways, I lost contact with him due to moving to another state. Throughout my adolescent years, entering adulthood; he still crossed my mind from time to time. Recently, as we all do now in modern generation, we met back up on FB. When he hit me up it was exciting, butterflies, the whole 9 yards. Prior to him contacting me I had planned a trip to a state where I've always wanted to move to and transfer my job to and to look into retail stores associated with my current employer and apartments. After he and I began talking and communicating he told me where he lived....which JUST so happened to be where I am looking to transfer. I went down there last Oct. He and I had been talking months prior to that, catching up, reminiscing of elementary school days, flirting, him telling me about his "career of choice" at the moment. I cant reveal who he is at the moment due to him being someone that's actually exceeding in the music industry.....
The weekend I went down there, he let me know that he was working but wanted to meet up for lunch the following day. The next day...no word from him....the following day...no word. In the meantime, I found beautiful apartments that i'm interested in, along with retail stores that I can transfer to. I have a goal set to be transferred from my job by June 2015. that Sunday as I was about to head back to my state, literally about to put my car in drive, he messaged me saying he wanted me to meet him at his job. I told him that I was about to head back to my state. He apologized but asked me to come to at least give me a hug. He was about 30 min outside of where I needed to head to go back home.
As I drove to him I kept thinking back of how it all started with him in elementary school, how I've always had these feelings for him, even after years have gone by, I became a young adult, started my own family with my beautiful children, experienced divorce, everything; yet he always crossed my mind. I remember the feeling of my heart jumping out of my chest everytime he said hello to me, hung out with me after school, but i never revealed how i felt about him. And now after all these years, ESPECIALLY FOR WHO HE IS, I was going to see him again after 20 plus years.
I finally got to him and when he walked up to me, the hug was SOOO tight. His smile (what always got me about him)....ugh. It was so short because I had to head back home to my kids...but the quick moment we had....I fell in love all over again lol. Who this guy is, what I'm currently experiencing with him now....it's like is my chance to actually have a chance with him or is this karma being a retched bitch for some past transgression....I dont know...all I know is that this feeling I have for this man is unexplainable...and from the looks of it i tried lol.
Later throughout my diary he will finally be revealed, but just not now....I still have a life. I am a mother, a artist, and a woman whose main goal is to conquer every dream I have. I am happy to be back to bloop after so many years...and I hope to find some old and new friends.
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