Moving along as normal as possible

It is said that the "The first person you think of before you go to bed, and the last person you think of when you wake up...is either the cause of your happiness or pain".
Well....this guy is on my mind before bed and after. I'm happy because we got back in touch with each other, yet sad because he isnt mine. When we first began talking again he did let me know that he isnt looking for a relationship only because every girl he gets with, due to his busy schedule with his music career, it never works out. I can understand that, because even with us not being together, it is hard to hear from him. Like a week will go by and I do not hear from him. However, when I do...it's like we pick back up on the previous convos. My daughter is a huge fan of his music group, and I loved how he took the time out to speak to her on the phone when I went to see him a few months back.
There is definitely flirtation...a lot of flirtation. I've come to the realization that it's almost impossible for him and I to begin anything especially with him in the music industry...and I wouldnt want him to do anything other than what he loves. If that means I'd only be a friend for however long God has us in each others lives; fine. Yet...the feeling for him never died out after all the years it just got stronger...
It's been about 4 days since the last time I talked to him. He asked me to give him the listings of the places I found where I'm moving to in his area to make sure it's in good neighborhoods due to me having my kids. When I do hear from him, he makes sure to ask about the kids, and it's so sweet. Like I said it's not anything to where he and I are officially dating or anything like that, but he knows how I feel about him. He knows I've crushed on him since adolescence but he doesnt know exactly how strong it is.
Anyways, back to my regular life; I'm sitting here cooking dinner and watching Christmas movies with the kids. I cannot believe how fast the year has gone by. I'm just ready to take life by the horns, especially with this move I'm about to make. I am moving to a state where I dont know anyone with my children...its' nerve wrecking but hey...you never get what you truly want until you take the steps and go for it. Anywho, gonna finish dinner and I'll be back later.