I know it’s been an age since I last wrote and that no one else really writes anymore, but I feel the need to get my thoughts out of my head! It’s fast approaching winter and I keep thinking about where I was this time last year… some would say very far behind- no man, no money and sharing with Bex- some would say I was way ahead- controlling my own time, adventurous and fun loving!
I am now in the frame of mind where I want to get some of my old self back- having more of a life and going out more is definitely one of those things- although now that everyone else seems to have boyfriends, no one is really meeting up as much- and that sucks! I have spent 9 months without fake nails, and I am craving them again, I just feel more girly, and more beautiful with them… I know, they don’t help my actual nails, but I think they’re beyond repair anyways! I am also perpetually cold- currently I’m in school wearing a vest top, shirt, jumper, jacket and gloves, and still not warm- so I’m thinking I need to get back on my sunbeds for a bit… I feel healthier, skinnier, and actually warm when I have them! I am also considering joining a gym, seeing if I can afford the £50 a month- having a boyfriend has definitely made me have more money, and trying to save £500 a month for a house/ holiday/ braces is working, so long as Xmas doesn’t destroy my bank account again!
And so my general rant of the moment is that I’m floating along, without really knowing how I feel, and longing for the comforts of my old life. I want to feel that excitement and happiness that has been missing for a while, and small steps seem to be the way forward… I’m also considering another declutter- anything I don’t really wear/ use is going to charity/ cousins! Woo!
love fallen
xxx
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