My one step forward today has been that I am acting head of department which is awesome, I'm having a blast so far, although teaching 40 16 year olds was a bit daunting- the fact that they all shut up and actually listened was great as it meant I felt like I had authority! We've got parents evening tonight and I'm looking forward to it, but apprehensive to meet Brett's bosses (I teach one of their daughters)!
On the two steps back- I feel like I'm liking Brett and being honest too much. I told him on Sunday about how I can see this being long term- but as he's only ever been out with someone for 4 months it must seem quite daunting to him, I asked if he thought we saw each other too much (he said no which was good) and then I told him I got jealous (he liked that thought apparently lol) and just generally I've been feeling more and more insecure as I wonder about how much he likes me!!! Hehe, I am a class A idiot, and at least I am aware of that... although my one step back today was I deleted his number off my phone- so I'm not tempted to text him! How sad is that, deleting ur own boyfriends number to stop u being tempted to turn into a bunny boiler,lol
My other step backwards is that my heating and hot water have broken- AGAIN! I had to wash my hair with a kettle, not fun- but an experience to say the least- and my car is broken, still... mum and dad think I have enough money to buy a new one, I lied!! But next week dad says we will look at buying, so fingers crossed they chip in some... my new years resolution to have it all has gone slightly wrong already- Boyfriend has turned me into a self-doubting freak, house and car are broken thus finances are back up the spout!
But I have been walking to school so bring on the getting fitter cardio and thigh exercises, one good thing can come from my musings...
Love Fallen xxx |
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