+unknown illness+

06/08/2009

So for the past week or so I've been having weird illness stuff going on, being sick and feeling ill, needing sleep etc and the loo (but then always had a bladder like an OAP)- just feel really run down and the doctors can't figure it out. Was at hospital Wednesday and Thursday having tests done, on my thyroid etc and they're trying to rule out as much as poss as they can't figure out what's wrong!
Life is pretty cool at the moment- I may be shooting myself in the foot but teaching is going really well, there's 7 weeks left til the Summer holiday (can't wait), I just hope it doesn't drag too much- having year 11 and 13 out is making life a lot easier but I dread getting put on cover so much!

On the boyfriend front things couldn't be better- we spend a lot of time together and even though I felt really ill, was grumpy as hell etc, he was patient and nice and still cooked for me, massaged me and ran me baths... every time I get stressed about the mess in my house he reminds me that after Christmas he'll be getting us somewhere to live- and I get to design the decor, so I will be content... too good to be true right.
I seriously think I've found the person i want to spend my life with, not just cos he bought me a new laptop on Saturday, but because he's the most kind and caring person I've ever met, and I can't get enough of him!
I went to his gym to start my skinny work out routine last week- used those power plate things that Madonna etc use... it felt so good- knowing that my muscles were working 3 times as hard as if I'd just been doing normal exercise and that 20 minutes of work out on there was the same as 3 hours!!! So I'm hoping if I can go twice a week I will get in shape in the next few months.

I'm also in a show next week, really dreading it still as don't know much, but it's starting to come together a bit, just got to keep listening to the music til it makes me feel ill!! Got pretty cool lessons today, don't think I can face the after school meeting, Bex and I have been talking about what could be wrong with me; she did scarily mention the word pregnant, which really got me thinking. I finally do feel like I'm in a place where I'm ready, not to have a baby today obviously, but I know I could handle it now, I feel like I know who I am and what I want from life- and that even though I want to spend my money on me for a couple more years I could handle whatever life throws at me...

love Fallen xxx