good? morning.

So... woke up thismornin and my stomach STILL hurts... this is like the 3rd day. i know im not sick.. and its jus stress but come on. this is irritating.

idk why im so stressed the past few days... its not that theirs anything more to stress about its that everything there is is effecting me more then normal... i dont get it.

then i went outside to smoke and went to come back inside and the door is locked... faaaantastic. yay for crawling through windows.

still waiting for steve to text me... guess hes either sleeping or busy... but i wana know how hes feeling. hes got kidney stones now and i hate bein away from him when i know hes not ok.

if their was any improvment in his pain level he might come up for family dinner, which my brother said if hes gonna be here then my brother isnt coming up. good. i dont want to even look at that asshole right now. he still has nooo idea jus how pissed i am right now... i dont remember being this pissed off at him before. but im probably gonna have to deal with him anyway.... cuz its not likely that steve would feel better.

me and steve are now not hiding anything...not even from his stupid ex. which makes me really happy but one thing still bothers me and its pretty stupid but its that hes still single on his myspace and theirs no pictures up of us... i know hes not really the myspacer type to jus run off and change that though

i guess it bothers me cuz 2 of my relationships that that started to bother me with... and i jus dismissed it as its jus a website who cares....ended when i started to worrie about that in the back of my head. one of which it was because he jus didnt care about me. and the other one he was cheating on me. I KNOW he loves me and i KNOW nothing is ending and its not for any other reason then he jus doesnt think about it

but i cant stop bein stupid and getting rid of old ways of thinking... its like a reflex now to think that way cuz in the past its proven to be the case more then once.

so imma get to work on the house... makin sure all my stuff is set up and do a few things outside of my room for my parents. and hope tonight goes well...

peace.

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