sooo things have been goin pretty good here. seen some of my old friends already which i didnt really expect. mikey and sara decided to come get me and hang out with me most the day sunday which was awsome good to catch up with sara. and when me and mikey went to safeway i saw Helens car so i went in to say hi to her its good to know she doesnt hate me and is still my friend even though she hangs out with alota people who i know arent fond of me and spred alot rumers about me.
next morning i got up and went with my mom to allees school and on the way back steve decided to have me over so she dropped me off there ^_^. iv been wanting to see him cuz i know he doesnt feel good. and somehow it came up and he made a comment that told me hes afraid to lose me. yeah this whole school and work for him. and work for me is gonna be a lil straining on our relationship but i knew this from the begining. i tried to tell him i love him and always will and im not gonna leave him for something like this. idk how to put it through that boys head... you would think when he told me we might have to take a break that me spending about 4 hours balling...and then waking up and doin it again would tell him i wana stay with him haha.. but i guess hes jus insecure.
but it was an amazing night anyway after he dropped me off this morning and i layed down for a nap i got a call from gutar center waking me up and calling me in for an interview! when i walked in people were goofin off and singin and dancing haha hum... spending most my time in a place with up beat people in a room full of lights and music?and getting payed for it? yes please! and the managers were really cool i think i nailed it and they liked me so crossin my fingers i get this one!they r gonna let me know on friday.... had to kill an hour and a half at the mall alone after that though before i could get a ride... which would have been fine but i was fuckin cold in interview cloths, and my feet hurt from high heels.. and guys kept whisling at me. fuckin losers.
and im a lil worried now. which is gonna make it hard to sleep...but steve is taking longer to go to the hospital then i would like for his kiddny stones...i know he will be fine but i hate being this far away and knowing hes not ok... im jus frikin antsy cuz i wana see him and know hes ok...
so yeah thats about all i can think of thats new.
imma go do something with myself now... probably doodle for a bit.
goodnight <3