Ok, I've been requested I write an update so here goes:
I took off on a road trip toward the end of May with a friend that graduated with me. We ended up on the Eastern Shore of Maryland after meandering around the country for a few days. More accurately it was mad-dashing from place to place for no apparent reason other than the person I was with wanted to get home. All-in-all that was a pretty fun part of the trip. I spent some time in MD and then took the Greyhound up to Vermont to visit another friend that graduated with me. Vermont was what made me fall in love with the east coast. Definitely a microcosm, but so mind-blowingly gorgeous. I was incredibly lucky to have such a welcoming family to stay with. It was also sort of a detox before I continued on.
I then took a train between Boston and Chicago and met my exboyfriend in the train station. It was great. We walked around Chi-town for a while and then ended up staying with some of his family. He and I had a really honest heart-to-heart -- something I haven't been able to do in a while. We then drove up to Madison and I ended up staying with him for three weeks.
Being with him definitely brought up a lot of feelings I thought were long gone. It helped to be in a city I felt incredibly comfortable being in. It was one of those super fantasy, idyllic summer flings, except we already knew each other really well. It was hard to leave, but I'm pretty sure I was ready to get back on solid ground.
So I then took a train from Chicago to Flagstaff and my little brother picked me up at the train station and drove me home.
My grandfather passed away about a week before I came home and I ended up setting myself up in his house. My aunt & uncle inherited it so they're very generously letting me stay here while I figure out what I'm doing next. I admit it was weird coming back to a house without my grandfather in it. His passing has been pretty difficult for everyone -- he was sorting a binding factor between my family members. It's good to be around my aunt and uncle, though. They've been a huge support network as well as a huge inspirational force in my life for the past seven years and it's amazing how much better I can relate to them than my own parents at times.
As far as what my next move is going to be, I'm really unsure. More school at this point is sounding much too unattractive, but I know I'll probably end up applying at the last minute. It's easy to be so comfortable in this town -- especially since my cute boy is back around. I went back and read an entry I wrote a year ago about him and it's funny how easily I've become so infatuated with him again. Immediately. Now I'm trying to be a little more cautious and backing off -- not letting myself get too attached. This time around it just feels different, though. He's been incredibly sweet to me. I don't know, I guess I just need to keep myself busy with things in addition to him so I don't go batty.
That's a nice condensed version of the past few months. I'm amazed at how quickly this summer flew past, but fall is always a welcome change of season. It's time to pull out my Dr. Crusher boots, tights, leather vest, and plethora of great sweaters, vests, and jackets. Oh, and I guess my older sister is getting married in two weeks. I'm not completely excited about the prospect of her fiance, but I'm working on it. It'll be nice to get the wedding over with so we can talk about things other than the wedding.
I hope things are still going well for folks on this crazy website. Seems to not be used so much anymore, which is understandable. It's funny to think about how many pictures I used to put up on here. So in honor of that, here's what my life has consisted of recently - |
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It must be strange to be living in a house that echos of him but not actually have him around.