Ok. So I might just be in a sentimental mood, or maybe I’m feeling lonely, or maybe I’m feeling inadequate in areas of life, but I just needed to take a moment to write to you.
You are amazing.
You are one of a kind. In a way that makes me wonder why the rest of the world can’t take a cue.
I am incredibly happy that your ______ has taken you to such interesting and exciting places and that you have embraced it. I would like to say I had some sort of influence in that process, but ultimately it was you who found yourself in your ______. And there’s nothing more beautiful and empowering than that.
You know, I look back on the ridiculous experiences you and I have had together, and there’s always that part of me that misses it, but your _____ say it all! How profound. I’m glad we were both able to find our separate paths and that we have thrived down those paths in such astounding ways. But do you ever think about where we would be if I hadn’t decided Ryan was worth it?
In a way I feel like your _____ wouldn’t have evolved in the ways that it has. And I feel like I wouldn’t have grown up in the ways that I did, leading me back to ________ and to a school that is offering me one of the best opportunities I have ever been handed. We would probably still hang out a lot, but would we cherish each other as much as I feel I am able to cherish you now with certain degrees of separation?
I don’t know, ________. I can’t remember a time when I have been honestly angry with you. I know that’s cheesy, but it’s also true. I know you have been angry with me, and with good reason, but I think that’s part of what makes you such an intriguing person. You are definitely one of the more perceptive people I’ve had the pleasure of acquainting, and you’re definitely a source from which my ability to analyze my emotions resonates from. We got to know each other in pretty interesting parts of our lives and I need to remind myself of that, but I also need to remind myself that every part of life is interesting in some respect.
I suppose what I feel when I think about you is gratitude. And love. And warm fuzzies. No, really, gratitude and love. For who you are. For who you were and are for me. For who you helped me become. For that talent you have that keeps swelling to new heights. For our past. For your ability to remain one of a kind. And for you giving me the ability to see you in such light.
I just hope you know that I don’t have it in me to be superficial toward you. I don’t have the ability to bullshit you (unless I’m showcasing your gullible tendencies) nor the desire to. And there are few people in my life who have that (privilege).
So thank you for sharing your _______ and heart and soul with me. And thank you for being you. And thank you for encouraging me to be me.
Truly truly truly,
Rachel |
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