I think I might go a little rapid fire…
1) I’m currently waiting for the sleep aid I took to kick in. Took it cause I got upset and bawled and can’t sleep now.
2) I passed my class and will be on a regular schedule when classes pick back up in January. I have Nikki G. and Courtney again. This makes me happy.
3) I miss Pete. A lot. This is not what made me so upset. But it isn’t helping. Also not helping is the fact that, due to the boy’s busy work schedule, I get to be alone at Christmas again. And fend off my Aunt’s well meaning attempts at match making. Cause you know she’s got friends with nephews. At least Gram’s thinks I’m … “One of those gays“
And yes she asked me if I was homosexual. In those exact terms.
At.
Thanks-fricking-giving.
Dinner.
That was a few years ago though. I think she may have given up.
Pete wonders why I need someone there to help keep me semi sane.
4) Seeing the Julie puppy got me upset.
I was trying to avoid going into the kennel, with today being the last day of class, all the animals would be leaving. They let us go home after we got our grades at 1pm. Heather had to go to the kennel to get Fawn’s number. I, stupidly followed her. There was Julie getting ready to go home with the girl who got her for foster. All happy and jumping up. I had to suppress the urge to give her the “Mom Voice” and tell her Off. Cause she isn’t my dog. Tried to slip out of the room with out her seeing me. Was rather unsuccessful. She almost pulled the girls arm of coming over to greet me. It made my heart hurt.
Now I’m crying again.
Guess it isn’t so rapid fire.
Oh well.. Head hurts a little less. I’m going to lay down and listen to music till I fall asleep.
Goodnight. |
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