So... I've made a bunch of decisions over the last few days.
I don't like the fact that Justin and The Mindie have moved out. I miss my big brother.
Yes it's good for them to be out on their own. I am happy for them
But I'm still a big loser and miss my big brother
In other news... my career path has changed again.
I'm thinking that beign a Pharmacy Technician is more practical than Vet Tech. I'm saving money now so that I can go to school in a few months... like around three.
I have my last payment to a credit card debt program at the end of this month. So I'll be able to save almost $170 a month and check out an online school by Thanksgiving. Which will be sweet.
I would be able to get my foot in the door with several local hospitals if I worked there as a Pharm Tech.
Which means eventually I could get a better job than that even.
So I'm glad I've at least gotten my thoughts straight on that.
I've not however, gotten my thoughts straight on Pete.
One minute I wanna cuddle him then the next I wanna punch him in the face... but not really.
See?
Thoughts not straight.
I know I want more than what he's been giving me... But I don't know how to tell him that without being terrified that I won't have anything at all when I'm done doing the telling.
I hate love.
*edit*
By the way... is it sad that I have looked at the girl that he might be dating profile?
Cause I did... and I feel a little bit better. In a horrible shallow kind of way.
Know why?
I'm prettier than her.
By a lot.
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