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internet confessional 3.0
by girlsetsfire

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not sure how i got it, not a dollar in my pocket.

11/15/2011

i have been feeling super productive this week. i have a mental to-do list [most of which i typed out last entry] and i've been crossing things off of it at a pretty good pace. i should grab some paper and write it all down for the satisfaction of literally crossing things off, but i haven't bothered yet.
the secret is to get things done as soon as i get home from work. once i sit down, i just want to stay down.
yesterday i came home and power-cleaned for a solid hour before allowing myself to relax. i got the extra shelves in the office taken downstairs to the garbage/free furniture area. i cleaned the kitchen to the point of taking the burners out of the stove, scouring them, and replacing them with new liners. i cleaned the bathroom till everything sparkled.
tonight i left work and went to get my eyebrows done. i got off early, so i had time to go to the threading place and still make it home at my usual time. i sorted thru our stack of mail, and sorted the laundry. while the laundry was in the washer, i did the few dishes that had accumulated since last night, and emptied out the bathroom vanity. they're coming thru all the apartments on this floor tomorrow for pest control, and the cupboards need to be empty. i've done half of the kitchen already, the other half can wait till i make dinner and possibly use their contents. the laundry is currently in the dryer. i need to take the polish off of my toenails so i can repaint them.
gettin' 'er done.

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You really are having a productive week! I bet it feels great. I'm the same way too - once I'm down I just want to stay down.

[Janesse|0 likes] [|reply]

i find im most productive if i get stuff done before i sit too.
yay for getting shit done.

[just samma;Star|0 likes] [|reply]

I also agree with the doing stuff before I sit down policy. That also goes for running errands before I get home. Because once I'm in I sure as hell hate having to get back out for something stupid like toilet paper.

[Saoirse!|0 likes] [|reply]

Absolutely. Start collecting them now.

[Saoirse!|0 likes] [|reply]

I guess the thing is that I'm really not seething. I'm really quite numb. It isn't like "oh everything was fine then today mike started acting like an idiot". Our marriage was over before it started, and as I told Michael, this is nothing other than what I expected from him. I know that's fucked up - but really - it's true. I'm not angry. I'm not seething. Michael hasn't been there for me in nearly 2.5 years, and I didn't expect anything different. I've done everything the last 2.5 years on my own emotionally, and I fought SO HARD for SO LONG to try and make him give a fuck. I've let him do what he wants, I've yelled, I've pleaded, I've bargained, I've mostly blamed myself. But my moving on started months ago, and as I said. I find my circumstance to be unrelated to my relationship with him, and the reason I'm NOT going in there and freaking out is HONESTLY, because a) it SERIOUSLY wouldn't matter. B/c he'd just sit there and stare at a wall and pretend like I wasn't talking, and b) Because I'm FUCKING EXHSUTED. I haven't slept in over a month. I mean that in all honesty. I avg 2 hours a night, and when I am asleep I'm having nightmares and panic attacks. I have so little reserve that I'm CLINGING onto in order to be able to make it through next week, that I cannot give it to him over the fact that he's acting like himself.

[Saoirse!|0 likes] [|reply]

i'm the same way.... when i get home from work or school and i sit down, i'm not getting up! keep up the hard work!

[ms. burtStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Lots accomplished, and even time to do the nails ! go for the pink !!!

[velvet|0 likes] [|reply]

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