you think i'm pretty without any makeup on.

04/21/2011

my birthday was sweet. nothing special, but a happy day nontheless.
josh worked, so i spent the evening with andrew. we just laid in his bed and cuddled, ordered takeout, talked. the usual. we talked about how strange our relationship might look from the outside, objectively. here i am, spending my brithday in bed with a good-looking, straight man who is not my fiancé. we cuddle, we touch. i rub his back and run my fingers thru his hair. i'm sure that to some, this is inappropriate, and assumed to be illicit, and that's without knowing our personal history.
i am sooooo thankful that josh is such an understanding man. and i can only pray that whomever andrew dates and/or ends up with, is even half as understanding and open-minded about our friendship. because all it is is friendship. yep, we've seen each other naked. yep, we've fooled around. yep, we both acknowledge that i have fantastic boobs, and sometimes he even gets lucky enough to cup 'em [thru the shirt these days]. joshua knows everything that goes on between me and andrew, and is entirely okay with all of it. if he's wasn't, things would change, obviously.
anyway, after hangouts with andrew, i came home and had snuggles and amazing birthday sex with my bee. i love that man so much. and he was... really great to me. like, really. like, i asked if he'd been practicing. haha.
work today was hellllllllll, but i'm not going to talk about that, because it's over and i don't have to deal with it [till monday, anyway]. i took a nap after work, and it was glorious. after that i had a nice shower, and realized while getting dressed that my boobs weren't just having a happy birthday yesterday [seriously, they were so hot that i made andrew touch them to share in the glory] - they look awesome again today. i don't know why they're all porn hot, but they are, and i love it.
josh will be home soon, and we're going to watch tron. he saw it in imax with a friend of ours, but i have yet to see it. he's been stoked to watch it since the bluray came out, but we haven't had the chance till tonight. so we're going to have a cute little couple night, with the movie and hopefully a repeat of last night. then tomorrow morning, we're off to my parents' place for the long weekend. i'm looking forward to seeing my brothers and sister, and my parents. hopefully i'll get to talk to my dad about the wedding, and get him to confirm with our travel agent that he's coming.