Im so confused I don't know what to do anymore. this year has totally changed my life done a 360 on me. The guy I loved and was planning my wedding with up and cheated on me, whats worse he got her knocked up, he knows the one thing I want more then anything else in this world is to be able to have kids. He came home one night looked me in the eyes and told me that he was canceling the wedding that he didnt love me and hasn't loved me for a long time. That I have bascally been warming his bed for seven years, that he was in love with another girl and they were going to have a baby together something I could never give him, I had twenty four hours to get everything i owned and to get the hell out of his life. When I asked him why he said I was no good, he wanted kids and I was standing in the way because Im barren, no good to anyone, he said who wants to be with a girl that can't carry out there womenly duity. I was crushed, but I got mad there was no way I was going to let him see how much he hurt me I would not give him the satasifaction of seeing me cry, I packed up everything I wanted got in my car and drove to my moms thats when I broke down, I havn't seen or spoke to him since not that I want to. Im living with my mom and dad, working on gettiing back on my own two feet. I finally got a job, to help out with bills. I feel so depressed, Im lost I don;t know who I am anymore. Everything I have done for the past seven years is gone. My friends don't talk to me anymore, they all have there own lives to contend with, there either married, have children or are away at school.
I just don't know where to go from hear.
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I know that you love(d) him and are heartbroken, but if that's the kind of man (and I use man in the most general of terms) he is then it sounds like a lucky escape. He sounds like a truly awful person. Just because you might not be able to conceive and/or carry a child doesn't mean you'll never be a mother. Medicine can do wonders, and adoption is an amazing thing to do, there are surrogates, egg donors... there are plenty of options for you. Don't let that piece of scum dictate how your life should go. You decide, and it's okay to take your time. You're still young, younger than me! There are so many options, school, work, travel, a combination of the above, there's volunteer work with a huge range of charities, there's clubs and societies... Give yourself time, things will get better.
You need to move to Kingston. I'd hang out with you and you could meet the friends I have here. You would fit in and it would be a fresh start.