NoJoMo 8

11/08/2010

Well, it appears after my little "accident" yesterday, my laptop is no worse for the wear, which is very, very good. I did tell Al about it, and told him he needs to get on the stick and order a new laptop from work, sooner rather than later, because if anything happens to this one, we are screwed without courtesy of a reach-around.

So yeah, that was how my day started out yesterday, and instead of getting better, it got progressively worse. I started crashing, and when that happens, you know there's nothing that can be done except to ride it out, but it frustrates Al to no end, knowing that he can do nothing to help make it better. He tried, God bless him, but all it did was make things worse for me instead of better because he just annoyed me. I hate those mood swings and temperamental outbursts over nothing.

I know what caused the whole thing. The time change and the fact that yesterday was yet another overcast day where it was cold. I don't do very well with all this weather change because I have Seasonal Affective Depressive Disorder (SADD) to go along with the bipolar. There are going to be LOTS more days like yesterday in my future.

At any rate, he got up and made breakfast for the three of us, and what tipped him off to my change in mood was the fact that I commented, apparently rather snottily, about how damn loud the coffee grinder is. Al said he knew right then something was wrong because the only time I complain about something so little and minor is when I'm crashing. After breakfast I pushed him out the door to spend what was literally my last $10. I wanted him to go buy cigarettes, and he went and bought two packs to split between the three of us cuz all three of us were out.

You'll be happy to know, we all smoked our very last cigarette at about 11:30-11:45pm last night. All three of us are quitting smoking together and we started at midnight. Not only are the three of us quitting, but Amy Jo is quitting, too, and she's going to push her hubby into quitting by making things difficult for him to smoke around her. LOL And God bless Amy Jo. Seriously, I love her. She told me if I had to be bitchy and yell at someone, I should yell at her. LOL I won't, of course, but it's nice to know the offer is there. So seriously people, I apologize in advance for any bitchiness that may come from me over the next few weeks.

The thing about quitting smoking is that this time, I seem to be ready for it. I mean, I gave away my very last cigarette to Corri after just a couple of drags. It didn't taste very good. Maybe it was a good thing. I didn't even think before I did it. I just handed it to her. Does that mean I'm really ready this time? I don't know. I feel ready, but that doesn't mean I still won't bitch, moan, complain, and have cravings.

So today is Day One. Yay for us. I really need to find something else to do with my hands and mouth. I'm sure Al would happily oblige me in THAT department. (Ba-dum-bump)

Not really much else to say about yesterday other than my Bears won. Yeah, baby! Now THAT was some decent football coming from them for a change. It's about damn time, too.

Oh, I never did write about the very cool gifts I got from the 4th Phase Fan Club - the Chicago Bears Fan Club. Not only did I get one of those backpack type satchel bags, I got a very cool Bears pen, a Bears water bottle that can clip onto my jeans, a luggage spotter and luggage tag, keychain, a mouse pad with this year's schedule on it, an autographed picture of Brian Urlacher, and this one is my favorite... a Chicago Bears USB flash drive. I am SO digging the gifts this year. I not only join the fan club because I'm a HUGE Bears fan, I join for the toys they give away. LOL

Okay, well, guess that's it. Obviously my mood has shifted somewhat from yesterday's foulness. I hope this isn't an indication that a mixed state or more fluctuations are on the way.

Everyone have a blessed day!