hmm..where to start. good last few days i suppose; had a bladder infection which hurt like hell, but saw the doctor and they gave me some pills to take to get rid of the infection. so im all better biopsy came back not so good, i have the low grade of precancerous cells...doctor said because i am young they are just going to monitor it for the time being because they can turn back? i dont know. i have to go back in march for another biopsy and we shall go from there...in the time being i need to quit smoking eh harder than it sounds..even though i havnt even been smoking for a year now, its still hard..ill be like tommorrow no more ciggs but than its like breakfast aint complete untill i have that hit...i need to figure something out, iv got the gum so im going to try my hardest to stick to that...its even harder when ken smokes too and its like right there i wanna start running or doing some cardio because iknow thats really good really i just need to stop slacking and take better care of myself...this hpv thing is really gonna kick my ass in the end of it all yus i said hpv. i have it, got diagnosed with it like in may of it this year. the gyno is the only doctor i see now it feels like because of it... please not hating on it, i was litteraly depressed for sometime because of it. all i could think about was just getting cancer and dying..and now lookk!!!!! got to think positive!!!! on a happier note- i went to the parade today. the only reason why i went was my brother wanted me to go to watch him march in it. he did so good. it made me proud but as soon as the west port jrotc passed i was like lets bounce. i did not want to be in traffic...lol i work a double tomorrow..yippeeee!!!!! not really it'll all be okay. im wanting to wake up earlier in the morning to clean up a bit, my bathroom is getting hideous again, along with my room. ive been neglecting it....and it really depresses me...im tired of lookin at all the clutter. so im going to go on a cleaning spree the next few days hopefullyyy okay well im going to go to bed, seriously though if anybody as any tips as to stop smoking, or how to stay motivated to run please help night♥ |