i've got a pocket full of sunshine pt 2
okay okay okay....so now i can finally finish my entry from yesterday =]
well i can definitly say that nothing has gotten better with kathryn. last night things were a little better, but of course they took that turn where everything is wrong and no one can do anything right.
it started with what we were all doing last night.
last night were the wyandotte fireworks, i went with anthony and kathryn was supposed to go up and watch them with her boyfriend. i couldn't wait for them to show up...first because i was hoping all of us spending time together would help things and second because her boyfriend (dylan) and my boyfriend (anthony) made a bet. they bet that dylan couldn't quit smoking for about 2 months (or something like that) and the bets were anthony gave him $50 if he didn't break or dylan gives anthony $20 if he did break. well dylan lost the bet. i was really looking forward to that money because i was starving.
well kathryn and dylan ended up getting a motel room so they could do whatever they wanted...which in my eyes is a total waste of money because they use it until kathryn has to be home and that is it. no one actually stays the night there. while we were up at the fireworks hanging out with our Marine Corps buddy Tim, i was trying to get ahold of kathryn and dylan so i could find out when they were going up there. my phone wasn't working right so i wasn't sure that they were going through so i guess it seemed like i was bothering them. so instead of telling me that kathryn changed her mind about going to the fireworks, she called me to bitch that they couldn't find a parking spot there and pretty much that she was mad because they wasted their time coming up there.
besides that little incident, the fireworks were amazing! i had so much fun with anthony, tim, and his fiance. tim leaves sunday and won't be back until september when he is finally out of the corps....i can't wait. anyway we walked around, talked to some people we knew, and just had a great time.
there was one awkward part though. we ran into our friend chris last night. he was with my friend joel and his new girlfriend. joel and i used to be really close, and him and anthony have never met. the awkward thing was that we used to fool around back in the day...before we started dating the people we are now. no one knows about it but myself and him. we never told anyone and we don't ever plan on it. but we just stayed quiet and didn't even say anything to each other.
when i did get home i waited for kathryn because i wanted to see if dylan kept his promise to me from the other night. they got home and i went outside to tell her that i was sorry...that if i had known they weren't watching the fireworks i wouldn't have bothered them. i thought she was going to light me on fire with her eyes. we ended up pretty much cooling things off after that.
then we woke up this morning and things were just ugly. my aunt had to run to the store about 11:30 and woke kathryn up before she left. around 1, kathryn's brother john needed the key for the garage and asked me if i knew where it was. after telling him i didn't i went in to ask her if she knew where it was (she parks her car in there because someone was trying to steal it) and she decided it was a good idea to bite my head off. so i left the room without saying anything just so i didn't piss her off more.
after that, i just blew it all off and went to help john make some breakfast. i decided to make some chocolate milk because it went well with our breakfast but there was one problem....no clean glasses. guess who has the job of washing dishes....that's right....kathryn.
so my aunt comes home and i didn't realize that kathryn had gotten out of bed. my aunt told me that i didn't have to wash dishes but i told her i didn't mind and besides we were out of glasses. i also made a comment that i meant to make just to myself but i guess i said it a little too loud about how kathryn isn't going to do them so i might as well. yeah i got a comment back from her and she has been a bitch to me ever since.
i did realize that this little attitude she has been giving everyone is about to jump back at her. she thinks that she can give that attitude to everyone else but the minute she gets it back she gets pissed. well i don't really care anymore. i am going to give her the same thing she has been giving me and i don't care if she gets pissed, she deserves it.
hopefully with any luck i will be out of this house soon. anthony and i are in the process of buying our first house, we are just waiting for him to be completely pre-approved. we're probably going to have to borrow money from my grandpa but i can't wait until it happens. this whole living situation is slowly driving me to the point of insanity.
even anthony can tell how much this is taking out of me....emotionally, physically, and mentally. he especially saw it last night when i almost started crying at the fireworks. i love my family, i really do, but i can't deal with this anymore.
and she is off to work now for the day, and once again i felt the flames leave her eyes and hit me.
i don't even know what to think anymore. i don't even know what to do anymore. *sigh*
all i know is that i can't wait until after i get off work today. anthony is picking me up and i need one of his amazing hugs to make me feel even the slightest bit better. i'm just hoping he doesn't just drop me off at home and then leave again. that would majorly suck.
well now that my little rant is over with, i am going to go onto the lottery website to enter more codes haha.
i'll try to write later if i get the chance after work.
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