but failed to now.
holy cow am i miserable today or what?
everything and everyone is getting on my nerves today.
i just want to cry.
i dont know why i'm so irritable.
somedays, i just get. discouraged.
or something.
i'm just ready to yell at everybody & i have no reason to.
hopefully we get off work early today
& then i can go for a long bike ride.
biking by the water usually seems to calm me down.
something about water is magic to my soul.
not too sure how things are going with the babe,
he's home from the hospital now, but i haven't heard from mom in a while.
i've texted her a few times & she hasn't gotten back,
so im assuming she probably just needs some space.
i think it's just hard for me to understand that,
cause i want to just help her. & maybe helping her is giving her space.
i havent really been talking to my best friend either.
which sort of ticks me off.
sometimes, when i dont talk to her about her problems,
she doesn't really talk to me about mine.
& it frustrates me.
people are just frustrating me today.
i'm trying to be patient, with the patients (ha.)
but i just. i dont know.
part of my frustration is coming from people's ignorance about things.
like why fair-trade products cost more,
and how it is actually important.
why are people getting hurt over things like coffee?
it really angers me when people complain about having to pay a little more.
and walmart. i don't know why,
but my dislike for walmart is growing, rapidly.
supporting the local economy is so crucial.
& walmart ruins so many of them.
yes its cheaper,
but it costs more in the long run.
the local shops & business owners end up getting hurt,
which just tears down the local economy, not build it up.
i guess this passion i didn't know i had,
is errupting inside of me.
at a bad time, because i'm just irritable to begin with.
i'm not saying i am not guilty.
i do & have shopped at walmart.
& i have & do drink the occasional coffee, that is not fairly traded.
its the world we live in. sometimes, you can't escape it.
i just am making a more concious effort not to.
to support the locals, every time i can.
sometimes i wish i was still in europe.
life was just simpler then.
this is ranty enough.
love you.
xoxox. |
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